Looksmaxxcel
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If I come out of these years of loneliness, my head is going to be seriously fucked up from never getting female affection. I don't even want to settle with a single female or even get into relationships anymore, all I feel for them is lust. That's it.
I used to be different. I used to get strong feelings for one particular girl, but all of them decided that I wasn't good enough or that they didn't want me. A normal looking guy isn't enough for them, they all only want the cream of the crop, and that's not what I am.
Due to all of these so called crushes friendzoning me and then cutting me out of their lives, all romantic pair-bonding love I can ever give has been burned out of me. Now I'm just an empty husk that only has animalistic feelings for girls. I will never love again.
If I do looksmax enough to not be an incel anymore, no amount of fake romantic feelings from foids will fix me. I will never be capable of feeling that spark again, nor that blissful feeling you get when you find "the one". As it turns out, all of them are the same and run on the same basic programming. They are all like lower lifeforms that follow instinct. I can't love a cold and calculating creature that acts the same as every other female in existence.
I've "fallen" in love far too many times, and unfortunately, becoming blackpilled has completely unmasked everything and removed my ability to do this anymore. It's as if a chunk of my brain was surgically removed, which only worsens as foids keep treating me this way and confirm everything. Being ignored completely like this just makes me feel more and more numb to everything, and even if a female was the most loving and out-of-this-world affectionate with me tomorrow, it would all feel fake, and I would recoil in anger and disgust. I would kick her out of myself life when she no longer provides physical pleasure, because nothing angers me more than when people make you feel feelings that have zero basis in reality, the feeling here being love.
You see, you people reading this may think I'm a mean and evil man. But, you see, I'm not a mean dangerous man at all, I'm just a broken man. A man who has dealt with a lifetime of pain, rejection, sadness, loneliness, and disappointment. The feeling of being able to love was burned out of me entirely when my crushes didn't even want to be my friend anymore and left me for another guy every single time. That's why I'm a husk.
Every single time on valentine's day, prom day, and every other holiday you can think of, while everyone else was happy with someone else, I spent the holidays completely alone in poverty. So now I'm the valentine's day grinch.
I used to be different. I used to get strong feelings for one particular girl, but all of them decided that I wasn't good enough or that they didn't want me. A normal looking guy isn't enough for them, they all only want the cream of the crop, and that's not what I am.
Due to all of these so called crushes friendzoning me and then cutting me out of their lives, all romantic pair-bonding love I can ever give has been burned out of me. Now I'm just an empty husk that only has animalistic feelings for girls. I will never love again.
If I do looksmax enough to not be an incel anymore, no amount of fake romantic feelings from foids will fix me. I will never be capable of feeling that spark again, nor that blissful feeling you get when you find "the one". As it turns out, all of them are the same and run on the same basic programming. They are all like lower lifeforms that follow instinct. I can't love a cold and calculating creature that acts the same as every other female in existence.
I've "fallen" in love far too many times, and unfortunately, becoming blackpilled has completely unmasked everything and removed my ability to do this anymore. It's as if a chunk of my brain was surgically removed, which only worsens as foids keep treating me this way and confirm everything. Being ignored completely like this just makes me feel more and more numb to everything, and even if a female was the most loving and out-of-this-world affectionate with me tomorrow, it would all feel fake, and I would recoil in anger and disgust. I would kick her out of myself life when she no longer provides physical pleasure, because nothing angers me more than when people make you feel feelings that have zero basis in reality, the feeling here being love.
You see, you people reading this may think I'm a mean and evil man. But, you see, I'm not a mean dangerous man at all, I'm just a broken man. A man who has dealt with a lifetime of pain, rejection, sadness, loneliness, and disappointment. The feeling of being able to love was burned out of me entirely when my crushes didn't even want to be my friend anymore and left me for another guy every single time. That's why I'm a husk.
Every single time on valentine's day, prom day, and every other holiday you can think of, while everyone else was happy with someone else, I spent the holidays completely alone in poverty. So now I'm the valentine's day grinch.