You do have something to lose and I'm going to tell you waht. I thought the same way, but you see, you're not just going to die. You can drop dead from alcohol poisoning, sure, almost happened to me like 3 or 4 times when I even woke up in the hospital with no recollection of how I get there. But you see, you won't just die. No, that would be too easy. Instead, your body will deteriorate slowly, in excruciatingly painful ways. You won't only feel like shit, you'll actually be in pain in various ways. You won't be able to eat properly, move properly or even shit properly. At a certain point it can get so bad that you eat one wrong piece of food and you have to stay in a fetus position for 2 days in pain. And that's happening to me sometimes even years after getting sober. So no, you don't have anything to lose, but it can get so much worse. Because a slow death means you're not actually going to kill yourself in one dramatic instance, it's just going to be a slow and excruciating decay, that can sometimes last decades, meanwhile you are in more in more pain, and the alcohol ain't enough to numb you. If you want to feel good just smoke weed, let the lung cancer get you, it's a much kinder death.