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What are your copes/more or less realizable dreams (unrelated to inceldom)? Write all the details you want.
Mine are pretty boring and mostly relate around niche interests associated with animals.
I don't have bigger ambitions anymore, I do nothing with my life except browsing the internet for animals, watching documentaries, listening to music, fapping, working, being on .co/other platforms and sleeping.
If I had a GF I would visit zoos/aquariums with her, talk with her about animals and show her some of my favorite documentaries, these were my delusional and bluepilled thoughts back then, extremely cucked (I know) and not going to happen due to my face, height and autism.
Mine are pretty boring and mostly relate around niche interests associated with animals.
Owning an aquarium/terrarium one day. But my problem is that I cannot make up my mind what animals I want to keep. There are so many, the problem is that when I look at animals I completely fall for them for a short period of time and then I find something else. When it comes to fish I like pufferfish, needlefish (like Xenentodon), snakeheads (they are sadly illegal where I live), moray eels, polypterids and predators generally (like Belonesox/Hepsetus/Hoplias/etc). If size/reality wasn't important, I would like to have tigerfish and payaras (I once saw one of them in a shop and it was one of the best youth memories I had, which says a lot about the difference between my life and those of successful/attractive people) - but keeping them is unrealistic and this dream is nothing more than an infantile delusion.
I like many different invertebrates (like assassination bugs, predatory beetles, centipedes, millipedes, mantids, solifugids and scorpions), reptiles and amphibians. I especially like Cyclocosmia (just look at the patterns on the sclerotized opisthosoma of these trapdoor spiders).
I just enjoy them all and cannot decide which ones I want. And I always discover new ones like African arowanas (Heterotis) this morning. Furthermore, I am too old for that shit. Others started in their childhood days and I will never catch up to them. Furthermore, my knowledge about animals is not contemporary/modern anymore. Most of my knowledge is from old books/articles. And my luck was extremely bad in the past. Otherwise, I would only want some carnivorous plants and maybe a fishing license. But none of this possible because I am in an unsteady housing/working situation and I don't want anything get affected by the shit in my life and I also can't get my life in order in the forseeable future. I also once dreamed of owning a butterfly/insect collection and a skeleton collection.
I like many different invertebrates (like assassination bugs, predatory beetles, centipedes, millipedes, mantids, solifugids and scorpions), reptiles and amphibians. I especially like Cyclocosmia (just look at the patterns on the sclerotized opisthosoma of these trapdoor spiders).
I just enjoy them all and cannot decide which ones I want. And I always discover new ones like African arowanas (Heterotis) this morning. Furthermore, I am too old for that shit. Others started in their childhood days and I will never catch up to them. Furthermore, my knowledge about animals is not contemporary/modern anymore. Most of my knowledge is from old books/articles. And my luck was extremely bad in the past. Otherwise, I would only want some carnivorous plants and maybe a fishing license. But none of this possible because I am in an unsteady housing/working situation and I don't want anything get affected by the shit in my life and I also can't get my life in order in the forseeable future. I also once dreamed of owning a butterfly/insect collection and a skeleton collection.
I don't have bigger ambitions anymore, I do nothing with my life except browsing the internet for animals, watching documentaries, listening to music, fapping, working, being on .co/other platforms and sleeping.
If I had a GF I would visit zoos/aquariums with her, talk with her about animals and show her some of my favorite documentaries, these were my delusional and bluepilled thoughts back then, extremely cucked (I know) and not going to happen due to my face, height and autism.
