K
Hello my dear incel brothers.
I'm from India. I'm a medical student.
Let me explain from my condition.
In my childhood when my parents quarrelled often. At that time I said to myself that I'll become good husband and they will get jealous on seeing how I live with wife and children. Among my all other ambitions getting a partner was one top priority at that time.
Indian cinema especially Bollywood, brain washed me into thinking that I'll get the love of my if be the perfect gentleman. That if a girl gets to know my true character they will fall in love with me.
I used to believe that romantic love was pristine and purest form of love.
I think I got black pilled with few attempts of courtship. Even though it took me 25 years. The following are my attempts -
1. In high school , I was a very shy guy, introverted, and used get bullied a lot. But I studied hard and got good scores. It was like a over compsetion for other areas I lacked. I thought my scores will get me through life. But I was wrong, I realised how much I was socially handicapped when I went to college.
I had a oneities At high school. I confessed my love to her. She rejected me outrightly. Still I obsessed her for about 5 years . During this 5 years she had 5 boyfriends. One time I told everything about one of her boyfriend to her brother ( Indian families at that time ,in 2005 I guess, were very strict) I think her brother scolded her or something. The next day her boyfriend came and as revenge beat the crap out of me.
2. In college, there was this shy awkward girl. She wasn't a big beauty. But I like her awkwards and character. She didn't talked much. But was very friendly to me. So I assumed she liked me. I was so damn sure that she liked me. But when I confessed my love, I poured my heart out for her. She rejected me and started treating me like a total strange and psycho. It was worst rejection. I was shattered.
The 2nd scenario made me black pilled. Because I thought and thought, analyze everything for her weird behavior. Finally i brought me to the black pill.
Now with the black pill knowledge when I look back everything makes sense. From my romantic failures, the bullying that I faced, to, even my parents ,who compares me with other guys, (chads) pointing out to me how incompetent I'm. It's all about how people perceive you, it's all the impression, it's all looks.
I'm from India. I'm a medical student.
Let me explain from my condition.
In my childhood when my parents quarrelled often. At that time I said to myself that I'll become good husband and they will get jealous on seeing how I live with wife and children. Among my all other ambitions getting a partner was one top priority at that time.
Indian cinema especially Bollywood, brain washed me into thinking that I'll get the love of my if be the perfect gentleman. That if a girl gets to know my true character they will fall in love with me.
I used to believe that romantic love was pristine and purest form of love.
I think I got black pilled with few attempts of courtship. Even though it took me 25 years. The following are my attempts -
1. In high school , I was a very shy guy, introverted, and used get bullied a lot. But I studied hard and got good scores. It was like a over compsetion for other areas I lacked. I thought my scores will get me through life. But I was wrong, I realised how much I was socially handicapped when I went to college.
I had a oneities At high school. I confessed my love to her. She rejected me outrightly. Still I obsessed her for about 5 years . During this 5 years she had 5 boyfriends. One time I told everything about one of her boyfriend to her brother ( Indian families at that time ,in 2005 I guess, were very strict) I think her brother scolded her or something. The next day her boyfriend came and as revenge beat the crap out of me.
2. In college, there was this shy awkward girl. She wasn't a big beauty. But I like her awkwards and character. She didn't talked much. But was very friendly to me. So I assumed she liked me. I was so damn sure that she liked me. But when I confessed my love, I poured my heart out for her. She rejected me and started treating me like a total strange and psycho. It was worst rejection. I was shattered.
The 2nd scenario made me black pilled. Because I thought and thought, analyze everything for her weird behavior. Finally i brought me to the black pill.
Now with the black pill knowledge when I look back everything makes sense. From my romantic failures, the bullying that I faced, to, even my parents ,who compares me with other guys, (chads) pointing out to me how incompetent I'm. It's all about how people perceive you, it's all the impression, it's all looks.
