Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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What I want more than anything is a foid who cares about me, who is loyal to me, and who would hold me in her arms and tell me that everything is going to be alright. We'd do lots of things together, like going for walks in nature, watching anime, cooking, and cuddling with each other. Her presence would make me feel safe, and I'd never feel alone again. Even while knowing that it isn't conducive to reality, I still want a foid to accept me for who I am, to not judge me for my face or failings, to simply accept me and tell me that I'm good enough.
No matter how much I used to try to purge this cucked longing, it never went away. It's funny how despite becoming blackpilled, my will is still overflowing with beta male desires, bluepilled notions, and passivity. Even knowing that I'm poor excuse for a man, that the real world is antithetical to my idea of happiness, I still don't change. It's clear that I am a broken machine.
How do I change? Is it even possible? I don't understand why I feel this way when it's inherently counterproductive.
No matter how much I used to try to purge this cucked longing, it never went away. It's funny how despite becoming blackpilled, my will is still overflowing with beta male desires, bluepilled notions, and passivity. Even knowing that I'm poor excuse for a man, that the real world is antithetical to my idea of happiness, I still don't change. It's clear that I am a broken machine.
How do I change? Is it even possible? I don't understand why I feel this way when it's inherently counterproductive.