I want to see if anyone feel the same way so I posted a little part from my journal but maybe it´s just me..
You truly live in childhood and teenage years by the grace of all the emotions and hormones, by ignorance, naiveté, hope and so much passion for everything in adulthood living ends because there are no more emotions, passions, hope, ignorance all the mysteries has been solved “life” now is just existing, get an education or a job to pay bills and food, there are no free time anymore it´s all about sustaining yourself but for what purpose? Living is over so why go on just to exist in a boring, mundane trivial world where every day is the same and you never will experience the same amount of fun, excitement, freedom, hope and mystery in life as you experienced as a teen.
A little depth into this: Childhood was obviously paradise on Earth with unlimited happiness so not much to explain there, teenage years was rough emotionally especially if you like me had depression and suicidal thoughts but I still lived! As a teenager you feel everything so intense because of all the teenage hormones, the passions are so strong you are still very ignorant and naive about the world e.g. i am sure many would never leave their house without styling their hair just for the small chance (naiveté) that you might walk past a girl that would approach you, maybe even kiss you I even carried a condom in my wallet for this very reason of course it never happened but looking back it felt so good to be so naive because it was what gave so much hope to it all.
Even stuff like video games were so interesting and I was have so much fun and be so excited playing video games with friends in my teens e.g. Battlefield Bad Company 2 now I don´t feel anything.
Playing airsoft gun in the early to mid teens with friends just the thrill of opening the first package and inspect my first airsoft pistol was so exciting and all the airsoft wars we had with friends sometimes even being 3-4 per team it was so thrilling so much fun!
And I am sure a lot of people in here have tried Cannabis (weed) I still remember when I smoked weed with friends and had so amazing times, just the thrill of buying a gram of hash back then made me feel like the biggest criminal literally EVERYTHING so was exhilarating as a teenager there were so many new experiences to discover just like being a curious child exploring the world only this is a more grownup form of it.
The feeling of it finally being Friday so I could meet up with a group of friends and smoke weed all weekend, buying munchies, watching movies, looking to see who could smoke the biggest bowls, waking up and wake n´ bake immediately after waking up sorrounded by friends and continue the day smoking and having fun.
And now as an adult no more emotions, no fun, joy, excitement or thrill life is boring and ALL the money I have goes to paying bills, food, household items and other boring necesities "life" now is literally just existing, where I as a child and teenager used to live life i now only exist I have no friends anymore they are all gone and I haven´t made any new and fun experiences since I was 17-18 (7-8 years ago) So I can say my social life ended at around 17 but i could still feel emotions like sadness and excitement at 18-19 so to be on the safe side you could say life ends at 20
Childhood and Teenage Years is Living Adulthood is Existing
Life ends at 20
You truly live in childhood and teenage years by the grace of all the emotions and hormones, by ignorance, naiveté, hope and so much passion for everything in adulthood living ends because there are no more emotions, passions, hope, ignorance all the mysteries has been solved “life” now is just existing, get an education or a job to pay bills and food, there are no free time anymore it´s all about sustaining yourself but for what purpose? Living is over so why go on just to exist in a boring, mundane trivial world where every day is the same and you never will experience the same amount of fun, excitement, freedom, hope and mystery in life as you experienced as a teen.
A little depth into this: Childhood was obviously paradise on Earth with unlimited happiness so not much to explain there, teenage years was rough emotionally especially if you like me had depression and suicidal thoughts but I still lived! As a teenager you feel everything so intense because of all the teenage hormones, the passions are so strong you are still very ignorant and naive about the world e.g. i am sure many would never leave their house without styling their hair just for the small chance (naiveté) that you might walk past a girl that would approach you, maybe even kiss you I even carried a condom in my wallet for this very reason of course it never happened but looking back it felt so good to be so naive because it was what gave so much hope to it all.
Even stuff like video games were so interesting and I was have so much fun and be so excited playing video games with friends in my teens e.g. Battlefield Bad Company 2 now I don´t feel anything.
Playing airsoft gun in the early to mid teens with friends just the thrill of opening the first package and inspect my first airsoft pistol was so exciting and all the airsoft wars we had with friends sometimes even being 3-4 per team it was so thrilling so much fun!
And I am sure a lot of people in here have tried Cannabis (weed) I still remember when I smoked weed with friends and had so amazing times, just the thrill of buying a gram of hash back then made me feel like the biggest criminal literally EVERYTHING so was exhilarating as a teenager there were so many new experiences to discover just like being a curious child exploring the world only this is a more grownup form of it.
The feeling of it finally being Friday so I could meet up with a group of friends and smoke weed all weekend, buying munchies, watching movies, looking to see who could smoke the biggest bowls, waking up and wake n´ bake immediately after waking up sorrounded by friends and continue the day smoking and having fun.
And now as an adult no more emotions, no fun, joy, excitement or thrill life is boring and ALL the money I have goes to paying bills, food, household items and other boring necesities "life" now is literally just existing, where I as a child and teenager used to live life i now only exist I have no friends anymore they are all gone and I haven´t made any new and fun experiences since I was 17-18 (7-8 years ago) So I can say my social life ended at around 17 but i could still feel emotions like sadness and excitement at 18-19 so to be on the safe side you could say life ends at 20
Childhood and Teenage Years is Living Adulthood is Existing
Life ends at 20
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