- Sep 6, 2019
My head is all over the place right now and I feel like jumping out a window. So for the past few months, my Czech GF of 5 years has been going away from home for about 3-4 days every other week, (She studies for the other 3). She told me that she had been missing family and friends back home and so was making regular visits to combat her homesickness. We live together in a comfy flat and have a fairly decent standard of living, I receive a decent amount in my student loan and also work 15 hours a week, and up until recently she was working 1 night a week behind a bar.
Well, she went 'away' again on Wednesday, and until last night I assumed she was visiting family in the CR as usual. Last night whilst looking for some headphones, I came across a cheap, basic phone tucked away in her wardrobe. Curious, I turned it on...and wasn't prepared for what I saw. Tonnes of messages and conversations between a pseudonym name and men, discussing sexual services, prices, bookings and locations, all dated on dates that she had previously been away, with her last response to a message being a couple of weeks ago. The address given for all of them was a place in Denmark (I wont say any more). I immediately did a google search of escorts in the respective city and on one of the sites, clear as day, was a profile of my girlfriend, with a whole bio on how she does GFE, oral with a condom, full sex, dinner dates and incalls and outcalls.
In a state of total shock, I called her up on facebook and told her that I know what she is doing, and as soon as I did, she hung up and blocked me on messenger and barred me from her normal phone and the number listed on her profile.
I havn't heard from her since then, and I am in pure emotional agony right now. ..I can't even explain how that feels.
As I said, I am totally messed up right now. I really love this girl and we had our whole lives planned ahead of us (We were going to move to Canada once we finished our educations). I can't believe she has done this...I honestly feel like she has died and that I am mourning her loss, whist also being hurt and disgusted
I guess I am venting and trying to organise my thoughts, but I would also greatly appreciate any thoughts that are to be offered on what I should do and how I can compose myself. There is still a massive urge to try and pull her back here and sort it out because I have so much love for here, but surely I can't do that. "