falling though the cracks
- May 19, 2019
- 90d 17h 55m
When i was younger i had hope but over the Decades i became indifferent.
I was a bluepiller until I was 28 years old, then 5 more years of redpillers, until 3 years ago I became blackpiller, but in my unconscious I knew that blackpill was true many, many years ago, I knew that the physique mattered since I was a child, but the environment and the people denied it to me. I remember on one occasion when I was 10 years old I saw myself in the mirror and I said to myself: "I'm in a bad way, I'm very ugly" I wanted to commit suicide on the spot but I couldn't, I spent weeks very depressed and finally started to cope playing video games
I always wanted a muslima TradWife to make food for me when I grow up and rejected modern women.I think some people here say their opinion of women used to be less negative or they used to be bluepilled
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I was always knew women were artificial and material creatures, a part of me always found women’s personality distasteful. Though I still desired them, I did cling to hope that some women out there might be different from the herd till my early highschool days. After that I got blackpilled heavily in late highschool/college once I started to realize just how many dates and ‘experience’ a typical woman my age had, over hearing locker room talk etc. My last irl crush used to take the same bus route as me every day from school, she was quiet and studious, and always acted femininely shy but composed. I promised myself I would work up the courage to ask her name at least before the year ended. That was until around the end of highschool when I started to see she hanged around a boy, and would start to walk home with him. Apparently she had dated more guys than I realized. That was probably my biggest blue pill moment because I silently would wait around just to take the same bus as her.@RollD20
What was your opinion on girls back in your bluepilled days?I was bluepilled when i was younger. The fastest way to blackpill yourself is to interact with foids in any capacity. They are so transparent with their lookism that you would have to be lying to yourself to reach any conclusion other than the blackpill
I thought nawalt. I believed that not all foids were chad chasers and cumdumpsters. If I could show a foid how good of a person and mature i am, that she would appreciate that and want to be with me. After high school i worked on talking with people because i barely could. I felt that if i could just approach a foid and appear confident, that she would give me a chance. Also I believed that if i could befriend my oneitis’s family, then my oneitis would see i have strong family values and appreciate it.What was your opinion on girls back in your bluepilled days?
When I was a delusional coping simp that thought people were generally kind.@existentialhack @nxdismycope @foidologist @ScornedStoic @ShySaxon @Copexodius Maximus @kikecel @AlexanderTheGreat11
So did you used to have a positive opinion of women?When I was a delusional coping simp that thought people were generally kind.
But now that I grew up and know the truth, I don't want to be around most people in general.
I really wish this wasn't the case, but reality doesn't give a shit about how I feel.
Well, my mother and sister were very close to me, and thus I had a good opinion of them.So did you used to have a positive opinion of women?
Do you live in USA?Well, my mother and sister were very close to me, and thus I had a good opinion of them.
I went to a religious Jewish highschool, and the one chick that got caught kissing in the back of the school was outted by other girls and excommunicated by them.
This made me think the rest weren't whores ( I was wrong, they become whores a few years later).
What was your opinion of women back then?Yes. Even though I used to think that looks still mattered to some extent, I also used to think that personality played a big part, too, and can override looks. Clearly, that is not the case, and I saw the light after losing shit tons of weight and getting jacked and still failing miserably getting a gf, being called ugly in the process and shit like that too.