Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I'm in a weird position. On one hand, I've evaluated my life. I don't like or want anything in life, there's nothing I really enjoy. All I can do and really all I want to do is lay in bed with my laptop as much as possible, not bothered by anyone, living at home with my cat and my parents, with the nuisance and downside of working this job to survive. It's an easy life with little stress. And that's exactly what I'm doing.
But on the other hand, I can't help but get these moments of great panic with constant anxiety every single day, feeling that I'm growing old, that I've missed out on so many things during my youth, that I won't get those years back.
It's not like I would've done anything different, this is who I am, this is what I prefer: doing nothing. There's nothing better for me to do, there's nothing that I want to do in life, and yet I can't stop the worrying. I don't know what it is, I consciously analyzed everything and I'm not really missing out on anything since this is who I am, a recluse and a hermit. And yet I'm stressed as hell. I guess it's my biological clock, my genes screaming for me to have some contact with a female, despite my mind hating the whole lot of the, the fucking cunts.
Do you feel like you've wasted your youth and wasting your life?
But on the other hand, I can't help but get these moments of great panic with constant anxiety every single day, feeling that I'm growing old, that I've missed out on so many things during my youth, that I won't get those years back.
It's not like I would've done anything different, this is who I am, this is what I prefer: doing nothing. There's nothing better for me to do, there's nothing that I want to do in life, and yet I can't stop the worrying. I don't know what it is, I consciously analyzed everything and I'm not really missing out on anything since this is who I am, a recluse and a hermit. And yet I'm stressed as hell. I guess it's my biological clock, my genes screaming for me to have some contact with a female, despite my mind hating the whole lot of the, the fucking cunts.
Do you feel like you've wasted your youth and wasting your life?