Sometimes I still crave affection and especially sex, of course. But knowing the nature of foids + seeing how much men get fucked at the hands of foids nowadays, especially men who are able of feeling empathy, love, pairbonding, etc (like I am), I realize that logically, I'm better off away from foids.
But I find sad how difficult it is to feel motivation, fulfillment, etc, without a relationship. I mean, I do have many activities I like doing and that give me some sense of fulfillment, but tbqh, it feels like life is passing in blank when there's no involvement with foids at all. I remember being younger and more optimistic; even the (perceived) prospects of getting with a foid were so much lifefuel and so memorable. The years in which I had no involvement with foids at all seem like blank slates to me when I try to remember them.
I don't have the gift of celibacy. I'm no schizoid, I'm very sexual and affectionate. I'm a warm person, even though much of the public expression of it was curbed by all the negative reinforcement I experienced in life.
