Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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And it's not like my time is valuable, all I do is rot. I don't even communicate to people that often, every few years I might make a temporary internet friend that I exchange written messages with for like an hour at most. You'd think I'd be starved for communication, but it still feels like a waste of time.
I end up thinking "uhh, alright, gotta keep talking", I don't feel very interested or care about the conversation. I end up rushing to play a game or watch my sitcoms again rather than talk to somebody.
Ohh, I guess this is just another case of my brain finding anything but watching sitcoms, playing games or browsing the internet as being pointless, boring and a drain of energy. Fully aware of the irony, the activities I described are the peak of pointlessness and wasting your time/life, jumping off a cliff would be more productive. But I guess I've been in this depressed routine for so long that anything else other than these limited activities feels like a huge drain of energy and attention that is entirely pointless, so I'd much rather return to rotting asap.
I end up thinking "uhh, alright, gotta keep talking", I don't feel very interested or care about the conversation. I end up rushing to play a game or watch my sitcoms again rather than talk to somebody.
Ohh, I guess this is just another case of my brain finding anything but watching sitcoms, playing games or browsing the internet as being pointless, boring and a drain of energy. Fully aware of the irony, the activities I described are the peak of pointlessness and wasting your time/life, jumping off a cliff would be more productive. But I guess I've been in this depressed routine for so long that anything else other than these limited activities feels like a huge drain of energy and attention that is entirely pointless, so I'd much rather return to rotting asap.