I've basically built an entire gym at home where I work out every day, and let me tell you, I FUCKING hate working out and dieting. Most gym chads, stacies and fitness scammers will tell you bullshit on how your lifestyle, mental health and energy improves with physical exercises, sports and healthy diet but I don't get any of that, I feel worse than before as it becomes more and more apparent that my garbage genetics can only do so much.
I have ZERO incentive to do what I do , training really fucking hard from Mondays to sundays, since I NEVER got approval at anything relevant at life by other people, most normies and chads that works out at least have some previous personal experiences to strive for and boost their confidence about the results, I have NONE.
I'm not training to "feel good" and "be healthy", I'm training as a shit attempt to overcome lookism and for the slim chances of getting laid (and I'm very aware it's likely I will fail).
I'm training to become accepted in society and foids, otherwise I would give zero fucks, eat "junk food" all day while rotting in a chair coping with other stuff.
One of my goals gymmaxxing is proving to my closest ones that the blackpill is real, that our fate is bound by genetics and we can't do much about it. Then I'll kill myself since there would be no point living anymore since I wouldn't be able to achieve my goals despite my efforts (getting a good gf, or get laid easily, and getting acknowledged by normies as a fucking human being)
