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It was for my mental sanity. Maybe not the best decision for my future, but I would've roped anyway if I didn't drop out, so I guess I'm sort of lucky I'm alive.
I've made similar threads, but I MUST go over it again. It's not even regarding my looks alone, it's the whole genetic shit package. I'm basically stupid and ugly. I can learn basic concepts, but so can everyone else. I'm shit at anything advanced, sometimes my brain clicks in and I can sort of understand it, sometimes I'm staring at a paper for like 1 hour trying to figure out a problem, and I still don't get it. It might be my lack of motivation, but I can safely say there are kids in my class who barely try and outperform me like crazy. Why should I work 10 times harder, when Chad doesn't have to work at all. I've come to accept the fact that I'm horrible at everything. Gym class was the worst. I was ALWAYS picked last, and I was always the shittiest. I remember when we played badminton in gym, everyone else, even the autistic kid, learned how to play the sport first day, while I struggled for the rest of the week and was made fun of. Another time was basketball practice. We did drills where we dribble to the end of the wall and go back and stuff like that, and from my observations i was the worst, even tho I tried my best. You can educate someone with 30 IQ, they will still be retarded. Not saying that I have 30 IQ, but clearly I'm retarded. Im also terrible at socializing, so I can not hold off a job unless its maybe a job that i can sit on my computer at home. Oh and also regarding my looks. Picture a 5'7 "male" rat looking face with buck teeth, round eyes, ugly nose, has wide hips, narrow shoulders, small frame, stores fat like a foid, feminine looking overall, low T, high E, and bad muscle insertions. Anyway this is all that I have memory of tbh.
I've made similar threads, but I MUST go over it again. It's not even regarding my looks alone, it's the whole genetic shit package. I'm basically stupid and ugly. I can learn basic concepts, but so can everyone else. I'm shit at anything advanced, sometimes my brain clicks in and I can sort of understand it, sometimes I'm staring at a paper for like 1 hour trying to figure out a problem, and I still don't get it. It might be my lack of motivation, but I can safely say there are kids in my class who barely try and outperform me like crazy. Why should I work 10 times harder, when Chad doesn't have to work at all. I've come to accept the fact that I'm horrible at everything. Gym class was the worst. I was ALWAYS picked last, and I was always the shittiest. I remember when we played badminton in gym, everyone else, even the autistic kid, learned how to play the sport first day, while I struggled for the rest of the week and was made fun of. Another time was basketball practice. We did drills where we dribble to the end of the wall and go back and stuff like that, and from my observations i was the worst, even tho I tried my best. You can educate someone with 30 IQ, they will still be retarded. Not saying that I have 30 IQ, but clearly I'm retarded. Im also terrible at socializing, so I can not hold off a job unless its maybe a job that i can sit on my computer at home. Oh and also regarding my looks. Picture a 5'7 "male" rat looking face with buck teeth, round eyes, ugly nose, has wide hips, narrow shoulders, small frame, stores fat like a foid, feminine looking overall, low T, high E, and bad muscle insertions. Anyway this is all that I have memory of tbh.
