Im drunk
im done
and im not having fun
My days spent
staring down the barrel of a gun
can't escape
can't run
burning pain in my stomach
the headache wont fade , it runs amok
got no friends , got no lover ,
rotting away in the gutter
no saving grace and no smother
to stubbornly help me recover
got only the blade in my cupboard
waiting for me to use it
to help me escape from this suffering
same old , it doesn't end
Satan is chuckling
blatantly offering
an easy way out out of this hole
out of this com-a
cowardly rope
so he can devour my soul
gouge out my bones
and spit me out in the smoul-
dering lakes of hell
by his hatred , jailed
being crazed by pain
and never again
able to evade my fate
..... thats some autistic shit right there
but im gonna post it anyway
cause i got nothing to lose , nothing to gain
starting to lose it , going insane
im just the blueprint - of a failure
haunted by ruthless amnesia
just want to snooze and call it a day man
probably cooming before i lay down
there is this tumor inside my brain , it's
causing these moodswings ,
making me do things ,
feel like im truman , just caged
just a tourist of pain
doomed in this matrix
and bruised by my fate , but
the show - has to go on ,
face this nightmare
and cope til it's done ,
sick with despair ,
broken beyond repair ,
cringe , but who cares
im smoking this blunt
put these pills in my drink ,
never so-ber-ing up
whatever
those are just my thoughts , creative writing
they always turn so dark and frigthening
typing away at my keyboard
bored , unexcited
another Thread , another post
another day , forced to be silent
jailed away from society
cause i lack the positive mindset ,
the looks that i was born with are frigthening
the normies and whores , they dont like them
they laugh at me , call me a psycho
tell me to rot in my basement
to not bother the slightest
as they experience
all - that i have missed
the hugs , the smiles , the kisses
just normal life i guess
natural progression
the force that is driving us ..
positive feedback
cause of enlightenment .
------
also practicing my english ,
cause im a second language cel ,
left to fend for myself ,
struggling to form coherent sentences , held
back - by my inhibition , destined to fail
just another disposable
, broken , cancerous male .
mysoginistic prick
send to raise hell .
bruh
im done
and im not having fun
My days spent
staring down the barrel of a gun
can't escape
can't run
burning pain in my stomach
the headache wont fade , it runs amok
got no friends , got no lover ,
rotting away in the gutter
no saving grace and no smother
to stubbornly help me recover
got only the blade in my cupboard
waiting for me to use it
to help me escape from this suffering
same old , it doesn't end
Satan is chuckling
blatantly offering
an easy way out out of this hole
out of this com-a
cowardly rope
so he can devour my soul
gouge out my bones
and spit me out in the smoul-
dering lakes of hell
by his hatred , jailed
being crazed by pain
and never again
able to evade my fate
..... thats some autistic shit right there
but im gonna post it anyway
cause i got nothing to lose , nothing to gain
starting to lose it , going insane
im just the blueprint - of a failure
haunted by ruthless amnesia
just want to snooze and call it a day man
probably cooming before i lay down
there is this tumor inside my brain , it's
causing these moodswings ,
making me do things ,
feel like im truman , just caged
just a tourist of pain
doomed in this matrix
and bruised by my fate , but
the show - has to go on ,
face this nightmare
and cope til it's done ,
sick with despair ,
broken beyond repair ,
cringe , but who cares
im smoking this blunt
put these pills in my drink ,
never so-ber-ing up
whatever
those are just my thoughts , creative writing
they always turn so dark and frigthening
typing away at my keyboard
bored , unexcited
another Thread , another post
another day , forced to be silent
jailed away from society
cause i lack the positive mindset ,
the looks that i was born with are frigthening
the normies and whores , they dont like them
they laugh at me , call me a psycho
tell me to rot in my basement
to not bother the slightest
as they experience
all - that i have missed
the hugs , the smiles , the kisses
just normal life i guess
natural progression
the force that is driving us ..
positive feedback
cause of enlightenment .
------
also practicing my english ,
cause im a second language cel ,
left to fend for myself ,
struggling to form coherent sentences , held
back - by my inhibition , destined to fail
just another disposable
, broken , cancerous male .
mysoginistic prick
send to raise hell .
bruh
