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I just wanna be loved, but don’t think I’m worthy
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It’s funny, isn’t it? Despite knowing how women are and some of the worst parts of their nature...I still want a relationship. At least over a bunch of one night stands. I don’t know why, but the idea of having sex with a bunch of women that I’ll never see again, casual sex in general, has never really appealed to me. The idea of hookups just isn’t something I’m exactly interested in. I certainly wouldn’t turn down the opportunity (like that’ll ever happen LOL) if it presented it but I digress. I’ve always wanted to go on dates with just one girl I’m fucking. Hanging out, having fun, bonding, cuddling all that bullshit outside of sex. Basically, a close (female) friend that you’re also intimate with. Obviously this is not gonna happen.
Maybe it’s because I’m not attractive and have zero experience with being desired by women. Maybe if I was a hot Chad, I wouldn’t give a fuck about having a girlfriend or a wife. I’d only care about getting my dick wet. Maybe it’s because of my fantasies from both hearing stories from IRL couples and seeing them IRL, to very unrealistic fictional romance stories.
I’d probably run for the hills if I had an opportunity for a relationship. I’d certainly be being used, and a relationship would fail to reach my expectations entirely: I could never be vulnerable around her, I’d have to keep her “excited”, I’d have to continually show my “worth” to her by showing how awesome, hot, ripped and badass I am. I’d have to keep her on her toes. I’d have to be unpredictable and dominant. Even though it would be an act. I could never be myself. I could never be shy or submissive. I could never be gentle or too kind. I’d just get hurt. Even more so since I’d probably be some beta bux. I bet I’ll get cheated on.
I’ll always be jealous of those here who only care about sex and only sex, and do not want a relationship or a “connection” with a woman. At least if I was like that I would be more open to sex with hookers for the rest of my life. Maybe I’d be more open to them if they were legal in the USA but I still don’t feel good about not being able to “do it” with someone who doesn’t feel the same as I do towards them. I especially would always feel ashamed about losing my virginity to some whore rather than someone “special” since I am totally undesirable.
Ah. Fuck. Just gonna hope for robot girlfriends or alternate reality or some gay shit like that. Maybe when I’m 70 years old and it’s finally a thing, I can finally be with my waifu that is programmed to love me.
Maybe it’s because I’m not attractive and have zero experience with being desired by women. Maybe if I was a hot Chad, I wouldn’t give a fuck about having a girlfriend or a wife. I’d only care about getting my dick wet. Maybe it’s because of my fantasies from both hearing stories from IRL couples and seeing them IRL, to very unrealistic fictional romance stories.
I’d probably run for the hills if I had an opportunity for a relationship. I’d certainly be being used, and a relationship would fail to reach my expectations entirely: I could never be vulnerable around her, I’d have to keep her “excited”, I’d have to continually show my “worth” to her by showing how awesome, hot, ripped and badass I am. I’d have to keep her on her toes. I’d have to be unpredictable and dominant. Even though it would be an act. I could never be myself. I could never be shy or submissive. I could never be gentle or too kind. I’d just get hurt. Even more so since I’d probably be some beta bux. I bet I’ll get cheated on.
I’ll always be jealous of those here who only care about sex and only sex, and do not want a relationship or a “connection” with a woman. At least if I was like that I would be more open to sex with hookers for the rest of my life. Maybe I’d be more open to them if they were legal in the USA but I still don’t feel good about not being able to “do it” with someone who doesn’t feel the same as I do towards them. I especially would always feel ashamed about losing my virginity to some whore rather than someone “special” since I am totally undesirable.
Ah. Fuck. Just gonna hope for robot girlfriends or alternate reality or some gay shit like that. Maybe when I’m 70 years old and it’s finally a thing, I can finally be with my waifu that is programmed to love me.