AutisticMonstrosity
34 y.o. KHHV dateless, 169 cm skincel autist NEET
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...it's the first thing I think in the morning.
(Why 6 years? Because back then I was in mental hospital and had other worries also, also the antipsychotics killed libido and even the ability to have erections completely)
I can't cope. I can't think anything else. Is this normal? I don't think it is. Even masturbation nowadays does not remove the thoughts (but eases the pain), I still desire female, just not physically for half an hour after cumming, and when I am being really down like now, I am unable to masturbate (even though I know it would help feel better afterwards), because I am too sad, on the verge of crying all the time.
(Why 6 years? Because back then I was in mental hospital and had other worries also, also the antipsychotics killed libido and even the ability to have erections completely)
I can't cope. I can't think anything else. Is this normal? I don't think it is. Even masturbation nowadays does not remove the thoughts (but eases the pain), I still desire female, just not physically for half an hour after cumming, and when I am being really down like now, I am unable to masturbate (even though I know it would help feel better afterwards), because I am too sad, on the verge of crying all the time.