SkramzHandz
make sure you bury me deep
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- Dec 17, 2019
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I have only gotten close to having a real relationship with a foid once. Near the tail end of high school I met this foid through my family who in hindsight, was way out of my league. I was too much of an anxious sperg to make any meaning connection with her but for some reason she would still reach out every now and then (may have been encouragement from our parents). We never kissed and obviously never had sex, but we did hang out a couple of times in public (I know, fakecel right?). Anyway, at some point I ended up in the hospital for suicidal thoughts, major depression, and social anxiety. After my couple week stay I reached out to her and was honest about what I had been through because she hadn't known. She listened as if she cared, said she would be there to support me and then never talked to me again.
She ignored text, calls, everything. Now I want to be clear, I was in a bad place at this time. I was cutting myself (don't laugh at my pain) and spent a lot of time reading a suicide methods text file I found online over and over again. Not sure how I didn't just rope after that (kinda wish I had). So eventually I get over it because I realize I'm an ugly, awkward, mentally ill subhuman and she was at least a 6. Flash foward to present day. Covid is killing the normies, Trump is promising a civil war, and this bitch has the nerve to call me and say she is sorry for not being around (apparently she got my number from my mom). She's always felt "really guilty" about how things played out and when she got back in town to see her parents she thought of me. Apparently back then I was just "too much" to handle. She makes sure to let me know she has a boyfriend now just in case I was thinking about trying again.
Considering its been years since this all went down and she isn't wanting to give me another chance, why even call?. If I was going to rope over it, I would have done it already so it can't be because of that? Reaching out now just seems weird.
She ignored text, calls, everything. Now I want to be clear, I was in a bad place at this time. I was cutting myself (don't laugh at my pain) and spent a lot of time reading a suicide methods text file I found online over and over again. Not sure how I didn't just rope after that (kinda wish I had). So eventually I get over it because I realize I'm an ugly, awkward, mentally ill subhuman and she was at least a 6. Flash foward to present day. Covid is killing the normies, Trump is promising a civil war, and this bitch has the nerve to call me and say she is sorry for not being around (apparently she got my number from my mom). She's always felt "really guilty" about how things played out and when she got back in town to see her parents she thought of me. Apparently back then I was just "too much" to handle. She makes sure to let me know she has a boyfriend now just in case I was thinking about trying again.
Considering its been years since this all went down and she isn't wanting to give me another chance, why even call?. If I was going to rope over it, I would have done it already so it can't be because of that? Reaching out now just seems weird.