I have suspected I had aspergers or autism for over a year but I am 25 so it´s pretty late to discover it although now that I have been officially diagnosed with aspergers a lot of things seems to make better sense.
Wow, 25. That's tough dude. Must feel a closure type feeling?
Please, for the love of god never tell anyone about it, i have it myself and do a pretty good job at hiding it and have never told anyone, but have seen plenty of fellow sub7 males with autism have their social lives ruined even further by admitting it, no one gives a fuck about mental illness in men so they don't virtue signal, they don't care, they just isolate you even more for your "creepiness."
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how did the diagnosed process go, my mom was always too in denial to ever get me tested though i fit like all the traits of spergs
Foids who preach toxic masculinity and even then it's faking
can you get neetbuxx for it?
It does especially about my hyper sensitivity, I air out my room all the time because I can´t stand the feeling of the rooms air on my face it´s kind of a dirty sour feeling I have felt this forever even in schools would I open windows because it´s so horrible with 20+ students in a small room it the air in that room will feel so uncomfortable and disgusting on my skin mainly my face and it was worse when eating my rye bread from my lunch box in that small room because the aroma from the rye bread would feel extra sour/acidic and it feels so uncomfortable and disgusting on my face it´s sounds weird if you don´t know what I mean.
And also my eyes are very sensitive to light so even on a grey autumn day where you can´t see the sun I would get a sharp pain behind my eyelids if I look near the sky, also when touching soft things or even surfaces it feels very uncomfortable to me and I can´t stand S sounds which I nearly cringe myself to death in 1st grade because we had to say the alphabet like AAAAAAA BBBBB CCCCC and when it came to SSSSSSSSS it was just horrible I can´t explain how uncomfortable that feels.
there are a lot of other things but these are just some of the hyper sensitivy quirks I have had all my life that seemed weird or different to others.
I´m not going around telling everyone only people close to me.
I was at two appointments around 3 hours total and had to fill out a long skema at home and my parents were in at some point to answer important stuff from childhood since asperger and autism can be seen all the way back to being born.
What have you done to cope with that?
I think I will be able to get more money now but it will be through a few years course where I have to train my phobia of eating because I have a throat problem that I have been operated on several times and done everything about but now they think it´s a trait of being aspergers that I am extremely focused on eating to the point where I obsess over it so I can´t swallow properly but to me it feels very physical it takes me 20 minutes just to eat a cheeseburger from Mc D.
But apparently I am extremely high functioning in other areas like the psychiatrist said when I talked about my past hobbies/obessesion is that when I get into a hobby I give it 140% I will not abstract from that hobby I will indulge fully in it spending weeks or even months learning everything there is to learn or enjoy about that hobby.
It´s not as bad now as it used to be I think it´s because of the anhedonia maybe I don´t know but I still don´t like that sound.
Can you do anything about it now?? Do they give you some kind of medication? I think I might be on the spectrum or all the torture I passed when I was younger damaged my neurological system.
Even the part about the uncomfortable disgusting feeling of the air in a closed room on your face? I have never met anyone or heard about anyone feeling the same way I always thought it was annoying but didn´t think more of it.
He suggested anxiety meds later if the training of eating would allow me to swallow pills which he is apparently sure I will be able to with training although I doubt it but even if I could or can swallow the pills I won´t do it for reasons I won´t say openly in this thread, but I am curious how it would feel to just try anxiety meds because I am sure I am way more tense and anxious than I am aware of.
yes but a lot of it had to do with bad acne in teenage years, having the air blow on my face at the school cafeteria, classroom, restaurant, or grocery store made me feel extremely uncomfortable to where id wash my face right when i got home, i hate when my room starts stinking and always try to air it out by opening windows, using febreese, and changing my socks, i cannot stand the smell of stinky socks so whenever i take my shoes off i have to wash my feet and change socks, just to name a few of my "weird" aspie tendencies
Autism trait: Inability to do multiple things at once in life, focusing on 1 thing at the total destruction of everything else in your life.
The part about blowing air on your face when it´s is very uncomfortable can´t stand it even though I never had very bad acne.
And I am also very clean I have even been told by a social helper at the dorm where I live that I have the cleanest apartment because I feel way more comfortable in a clean enviroment probably also one of the reasons I hate body hair I find it disgusting and dirty.
Damn I can relate to this just given it my all not focusing on anything else than my current obession and letting my grades go to shit because if I don´t find it interesting I won´t give a shit about it.
Did you just go to a doctor or something and get diagnosed? How did this happen, tell me the process OP.
Not OP but for me the process was like this
>goto doctor (local general practitioner)
>doctor refers you to psychologist
>psychologist refers you to clinical psychologist
>clinical psychiatrist refers you to another clinical psychologist who specializes in autism diagnosis
>do about 1 hour pre-test session, and 4 sessions totaling 4 hours of tests (total 5 sessions) with the specialist clinical psychologist to get diagnosis
It cost $300 per session, and like $1000 for a clinical report for autismbux if you're going to apply for autismbux. So it was about $2,500 in total.
I first went to the doctor who contacted a clinic for people with eating disorders who suspected that it might be an autistic trait that I have a hard time swallowing food and they refered me to a psychiatrist where I was at two appointments around 3 hours total and had to fill out a long skema at home and my parents were in at some point to answer important stuff from childhood and even back to the first weeks after being born since asperger and autism can be seen all the way back to being born.
Didn´t pay a cent because "free" healthcare in Denmark, insane how expensive that is I would never have been able to afford that.
That sounds very cucked. Never will I pay 2,500 dollars for something I most likely have!
Oh ok, we also have free healthcare in the Netherlands. I guess @VirginAutistManlet is a USAcel and that's why he had to pay so much jfl. RIP.
But if he can get autismbuxx it might pay off in the long run.
Got diagnosed at 33 after struggling all my life & living isolated. Decided I have to do something about this as no one else will so here's how it went for me:
Got a GP appointment, explained a bunch of details as to why I think I have high functioning autism or something, explained about parents meeting in a psyche ward, socially phobic father & a mother that has the telltale signs of Diogenes syndrome, bullying at school etc...am told Autism isn't genetic (JFL), told he'll contact some outlet in the locality.
2 weeks later I get some vague phone call from a weird sounding fucker that doesn't explain who he is or anything really, thought it was a prank call or scam (get a bunch of those), hang up, check voicemail (wasn't set up at the time), there's a message from a different person talking about our appointment somewhere (news to me) tomorrow.
Check the address & it's some mental health clinic 2 hour drive away (England), contact the phone number listed for the address the following day & say what happened with the mix up, she has no record of anyone contacting me, asks for an address then once I give it am told I don't qualify for their help as I'm outside the catchment area (wrong county), contact GP once again & explain what happened. Get a letter back after told I've been declined for an NHS assessment (2 year waiting list anyway) as there is a lack of medical records for me regarding autism (no shit, parents didn't give a fuck & I dropped outta school), no one intervened, Autism wasn't really getting any awareness over here until early 00's.
Figured fuck it, checked for registered assessor's in my area, found a private one, paid £600, filled in 2 questionnaire's, did an Autism spectrum quotient (scoring 46/50) , sister & father filled in a questionnaire, had an in person interview solo & a part with father present. A 2 hour discussion later & I'm diagnosed as Asperger's, the psychologist was shocked no one picked up on it or intervened at any point in my life, slipped through the net. Guess that's what happens when you have mentally ill parent's that teach you to fear everything, what's normal? Lack of extended family, no guests, living in an impoverished area with lack of options and incompetent teachers.
As for neetbux, fuck knows how you claim for that here, probably gotta be a tard autist, get diagnosed young or be wealthy & pay a private doctor with connections to get it? Once my father dies it'll be homelessness, suicide or getting a job driving a van or something as quite frankly after 2 decades of isolation I can't stand being around ppl so for a job it needs to be something mostly spent in solitude that's linear. If you're not savant, spastic level that will be looked after or receive intervention early on to learn to be "normalized" it's fucking over. NT ppl will never meet us halfway, we're expected to adhere to their reality when we're simply wired not to.
Wish I lived in Australia, America or Holland with this condition as those places at least seem to have different options set up to deal with this, UK is fucking backwards with this shit, the average gp knows nothing about it let alone the public.
There's a reason the suicide rate of high functioning Autists is 10x that of the general population, males on the spectrum have a 9/10 virginity rate & unemployment stands around 78-82%.
Got a GP appointment, explained a bunch of details as to why I think I have high functioning autism or something, explained about parents meeting in a psyche ward, socially phobic father & a mother that has the telltale signs of Diogenes syndrome, bullying at school etc...am told Autism isn't genetic (JFL), told he'll contact some outlet in the locality.
2 weeks later I get some vague phone call from a weird sounding fucker that doesn't explain who he is or anything really, thought it was a prank call or scam (get a bunch of those), hang up, check voicemail (wasn't set up at the time), there's a message from a different person talking about our appointment somewhere (news to me) tomorrow.
Check the address & it's some mental health clinic 2 hour drive away (England), contact the phone number listed for the address the following day & say what happened with the mix up, she has no record of anyone contacting me, asks for an address then once I give it am told I don't qualify for their help as I'm outside the catchment area (wrong county), contact GP once again & explain what happened. Get a letter back after told I've been declined for an NHS assessment (2 year waiting list anyway) as there is a lack of medical records for me regarding autism (no shit, parents didn't give a fuck & I dropped outta school), no one intervened, Autism wasn't really getting any awareness over here until early 00's.
Figured fuck it, checked for registered assessor's in my area, found a private one, paid £600, filled in 2 questionnaire's, did an Autism spectrum quotient (scoring 46/50) , sister & father filled in a questionnaire, had an in person interview solo & a part with father present. A 2 hour discussion later & I'm diagnosed as Asperger's, the psychologist was shocked no one picked up on it or intervened at any point in my life, slipped through the net. Guess that's what happens when you have mentally ill parent's that teach you to fear everything, what's normal? Lack of extended family, no guests, living in an impoverished area with lack of options and incompetent teachers.
As for neetbux, fuck knows how you claim for that here, probably gotta be a tard autist, get diagnosed young or be wealthy & pay a private doctor with connections to get it? Once my father dies it'll be homelessness, suicide or getting a job driving a van or something as quite frankly after 2 decades of isolation I can't stand being around ppl so for a job it needs to be something mostly spent in solitude that's linear. If you're not savant, spastic level that will be looked after or receive intervention early on to learn to be "normalized" it's fucking over. NT ppl will never meet us halfway, we're expected to adhere to their reality when we're simply wired not to.
Wish I lived in Australia, America or Holland with this condition as those places at least seem to have different options set up to deal with this, UK is fucking backwards with this shit, the average gp knows nothing about it let alone the public.
There's a reason the suicide rate of high functioning Autists is 10x that of the general population, males on the spectrum have a 9/10 virginity rate & unemployment stands around 78-82%.
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Damn, that's brutal. I thought it just made people very awkward, had no idea it fucks with literally everything almost. Some of the Highest IQcels I've met irl have aspergers, probably due to the getting really into shit thing you described. You definitely deserve NEETbux. Good thing people didn't know you had it in school.
Seems like most of your issues are sensory, and I think medication could help you. My brother has autism and has alot of sensory issues, and his meds prevent him from sperging out. Unfortunately, you have to be severely autistic to get neetbux in the states. My brother has a high iq and has a college degree, but cannot function in a work environment at all, and this disqualifies him from receiving any money. My mom made a huge mistake by encouraging him to go to college. All it did was cause him and us a lot of undue stress with no payoff.
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Wow you really have been failed by everyone both parents, teachers I guess and the government and then you have to pay out of your own pocket for something to finally happen and get some closure money really talks! Not to mention you were the one who found out you had it.
You also scored extremely high how couldn´t anyone around you pick up on that? Adults in your life might just have dismissed the signs as being weird. We have a different score on test in Denmark so it´s not out of 50 so I can´t compare with yours unfortunately.
And yeah it really seems like it´s way easier to get neetbuxx for aspergers/autism in the US there are many members on here who has gotten it for that reason meanwhile in Denmark it´s not easy it at my psychiatrist even told me that "people don´t just get a pension for life anymore". They did in the past for many things, if I had been born in the 80´s I could´ve had a pension for life but now I have to get into a program that helps me with my phobia of eating that last for 1-5 years so if all goes well I can get some money for those years.
My psychiatrist also noticed I was very observant like I will observe everything around me e.g. I told him how I noticed how people act different in groups and on their own like when you talk to a classmate in school you really don´t know, if you talk to him face to face he will be basically himself but add another person and you will see the person become more fake to try and act cool the same if you add one more or one more people act differently in groups instead of one by one.
- The best example of this is in grade school if you ever talked to a popular person 1 on 1 he will be so down to earth compared to sorrounded by his peers in class and I always noticed this and always hated it because I am always myself and don´t put on a show for anyone.
I sure hope I can get some neetbuxx it would take a lot of pressure off and make me able to cope. And I am glad no one knew in school I have aspergers and I am sure they would be surprised if I told them.
It may seem that way but that is because I only have told about my hyper sensortivity there is obviously also social problems, social anxiety and the ability to obsess over certain interests which can be a strong trait.
And sucks about your brother, I thought neetbuxx would be easy to get in the US it seems many members on here has got it for autism.
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@TheGoodGuy Yeah my parents had issues so I was largely ignored & never felt like I could go to them for problems, as a child I thought they was disappointed with (my interpretation of why they were aloof, wasn't that though) me so I didn't want to burden them with problems I was having as I thought they'd be even more disappointed & wouldn't help anyway. I grew up in a ghetto full of ethnics not native to my land so there was racism as I was a minority on a local level in my own country (jfl). Neither parent worked so there was no money & huge incompetence all around in the various government bodies. I remember if there was a knock at the door or a phone call I was instructed to pretend we're not home, the world outside is a fearful place. Before being allowed to leave the home my mother would force myself & dad to go through a "checking ritual" like at an airport to ensure there was nothing loose or caught on us incase we lose something, I guess in her mind by doing this nothing bad happens to us, like some ancient spiritual ritual that wards off bad spirits lol; that resulted in frequent arguments & a few times I'd have to climb out of a window. Don't think I got my own keys until I was 19 lol.
At one point the home was in such a disarray that you'd be walking on a foot high pile of spilled garbage bags, no hot water, father in a drug induced state of valium & mother having psychotic episodes in another room banging her head against the wall crying with snot & everything. Food consisted of canned beans, spaghetti hoops & toast or crisps. Needless to say I was anorexic, I recall hiding behind a tree at lunch time in first school sometimes to avoid going to the cafeteria as I found the noise & close proximity to hundreds of kids overwhelming, didn't like the taste or texture of alot of food & the trays were frequently dirty.
No one picked up on any of this either through ignorance, indifference, incompetence or simply put who gives a fuck about a broke peasant? Being isolated really doesn't help, you simply don't exist.
The thing that pisses me off the most about all of this is if one factor had simply been different I could of had a better life, a nice area not full of knife carrying gangs would of resulted in my parents allowing me outside instead of being cooped up inside all the time, a bunch of brothers or cousins looking out for each other, born into wealth or simply an intervention early on during the crucial formulative years.
Things are better now but it's like I'm a 16 year old trapped in the body of a 33 year old, I cannot relate to other ppl, I don't play the group game persona bullshit you talked about. I've missed so many milestones that I'd rather just live in isolation forever as no one will give the "weird" person a chance.
At one point the home was in such a disarray that you'd be walking on a foot high pile of spilled garbage bags, no hot water, father in a drug induced state of valium & mother having psychotic episodes in another room banging her head against the wall crying with snot & everything. Food consisted of canned beans, spaghetti hoops & toast or crisps. Needless to say I was anorexic, I recall hiding behind a tree at lunch time in first school sometimes to avoid going to the cafeteria as I found the noise & close proximity to hundreds of kids overwhelming, didn't like the taste or texture of alot of food & the trays were frequently dirty.
No one picked up on any of this either through ignorance, indifference, incompetence or simply put who gives a fuck about a broke peasant? Being isolated really doesn't help, you simply don't exist.
The thing that pisses me off the most about all of this is if one factor had simply been different I could of had a better life, a nice area not full of knife carrying gangs would of resulted in my parents allowing me outside instead of being cooped up inside all the time, a bunch of brothers or cousins looking out for each other, born into wealth or simply an intervention early on during the crucial formulative years.
Things are better now but it's like I'm a 16 year old trapped in the body of a 33 year old, I cannot relate to other ppl, I don't play the group game persona bullshit you talked about. I've missed so many milestones that I'd rather just live in isolation forever as no one will give the "weird" person a chance.
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Congratz! Now you claim that juicy NEETbuxx and live in "luxury" 
Holy fuck you have been neglected and failed by everyone, insane how the school didn´t pick up on anything not only your behavior but also the neglect at home.
It´s so surreal for me when people online talk about how horrible their childhood was because I can´t imagine how childhood could be bad since my childhood was paradise on earth I even hope when I kill myself I will wake up as a child again because it was THAT good, I even think I might have had one of the best childhood´s in the world.
But obviously you didn´t and with all the neglect with your parents not even buying real food I doubt you had any toys or video games? You must have missed out on so much as a child, again I can´t understand how all the teachers could not know are they just stupid,incompetent or did they just not care!? When you describe how dirty your home was, the lack of food and your parents zoned out on Valium I think about the kid in the Breaking Bad episode "Peekaboo" it´s surreal to think about.
I sure hope I will get neetbuxx but it will be far from luxury but hopefully I can have money enough to be comfortable and money to save up for stuff I want since I haven´t been able to do that for a long time.Congratz! Now you claim that juicy NEETbuxx and live in "luxury"
Yeah, not as bad as that kid had it, dirty sure but mental illness rather than illegal drugs, toys were second hand or presents, second hand games console with a handful of whatever games. Saved up to buy my first pc from working when i was 15-16.
Welcome to the club
Unless he (like me) lives in one of the many countries which don't have easy autismbuxxCongratz! Now you claim that juicy NEETbuxx and live in "luxury"
Yeah I figured it wasn´t as bad as that kid but still must suck to lack the basic necessities of childhood.
We will see but it´s not like in the past where people could get a pension and be set for life I will have to actively attend in a program to help my eating problem and it may last 1-5 years if that is the program I will get into.Welcome to the club
Unless he (like me) lives in one of the many countries which don't have easy autismbuxx
Safe to say whatever SMV you had (even if it's negative) is certainly a lot lower now.
Only if I tell them it´s not like the signs and problems were there before the diagnosis.
This is a part where only the man loses, girls proudly displays there diagnoses on social media or dating apps and aggressively write in their bio that men should accept them as they are while men have to be completely flawless just one flaw and girls won´t waste their time on you because they got dozens of guys lined up so why settle for a guy with a bad trait when the next guy doesn´t have it.
Oh aye it did, what's even funnier is 'cos I wasn't attending school I was sent to a pupil referral unit described as a place for ppl with emotional problems & the like, what that actually was though; a place for kids so bad they've been kicked out of school for attacking teachers, bringing knives to school, dealing drugs & being bullies out of control. Yeah great, right where I belong, left that place after a violent altercation & threats of getting shanked by brothers & cousins of one of the aggressors.
Holy fuck how the fuck could they be so incompetant and blind it sounded more like you needed loving parents and a normal home and then they send you there wtf
Getting a professional diagnosis can help you a lot with figuring out what to do to counter your problems. You basically got your permanent inceldom confirmed on a paper but atleast it’ll help you in day-to-day life.
Congrats to OP I guess.
Fuck man pure suifuel thread again.
@The Abyss
Your social system's problems seem pretty similar to Germany's. We also have this stupid split insurance system.
Overall your story hits pretty close to home, minus the extreme poverty. Parents got unemployed when I got into puberty for years though and they still make only minimum wage.
Fun thing is the mistreatment didn't even end after the diagnosis, which I got 9 years ago with 18. No one is doing his job here, jfl.
Fuck man pure suifuel thread again.
@The Abyss
Your social system's problems seem pretty similar to Germany's. We also have this stupid split insurance system.
Good times./s
Overall your story hits pretty close to home, minus the extreme poverty. Parents got unemployed when I got into puberty for years though and they still make only minimum wage.
Fun thing is the mistreatment didn't even end after the diagnosis, which I got 9 years ago with 18. No one is doing his job here, jfl.
Mind asking him what he gets?
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I don't want to get an official diagnosis as it would be too awkward to have to bring your parent in to get interviewed, awkward for me and them. There isn't much point of a diagnosis for me anyway as there is no cure, my main symptom is anxiety and I can get anxiety meds without an autism diagnosis. My uncle is the same as me and he is 58 without official diagnosis.
It wasn´t that bad really, and to me it gives some relief to know why I feel the way I do when it comes to certain things and I might be able to get more money with the diagnosis which was the plan since I can´t live with as little money as I have now.
Mental health provision is a joke in the UK. I tried to get checked out for autism, what I got was 5 weeks of CBT for depression and nothing else because I'm not a suicide risk. The alternative is years on a wait list or dropping serious money on a private diagnosis like @The Abyss.
I've already known about it for years anyway so in a sense I already have closure just don't have the certificate. For years I thought it was just Social Anxiety Disorder. I assume you mean NEETbux? I probably couldn't get NEETbux for it anyway, from what I've seen the autists in my country are just thrown into the rest of the long term unemployed, you tend to see them in the social welfare office
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Sorry to hear brother. Must feel horrible having a death sentence written on a paper
Yup I mean neetbuxx I really hope I get it I need so many necessities but also a new computer which will be the first thing I will save up for since mine is over 7 years old and I have missed out on many games the last couple years because it can´t run them.
Not that much I actually feel more relief than anything else since it explains so much, and again if I can get more money I will be able to cope better and eventually buy a car again I miss having a car so much it opens up a world of possibilities and is so relaxing for me to drive on long drives and the most important thing I can visit my childhood town whenever I like just like I used to when I had a car but I was forced to sell it last December because I couldn´t afford it.
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Cope, all your sense input cells of your "asperger body" would work even better (you would enjoy every second of your life with even more perceptivity) if you get positive feedback and get your social and sexual necessities met.
Muh "dsm"
Mental and physiological deciation from shitty genes and miserable life
Muh "dsm"
Mental and physiological deciation from shitty genes and miserable life
You're right, this place is fucked & I'd not be happy either if they gave me 5 weeks of cock & ball torture. Some would love to get that but not me.
Nah Cognitive behaviour therapy ain't gonna cure autism, 5 weeks won't help much either, better off avoiding normies if possible or learning Buddhist coping.
Better than being in France, they torture Autists there.
But yea sucks being Autistic in the UK, since no one gives a shit about a group of mostly straight, white males here.
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Mind asking, what meds he gets / tried? Psychiatrists are retarded here.
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Wait, the clinical report for DSP in Australia costs that much? What?
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One place over here with a team diagnosing across multiple sessions wanted like £1500 so I think I got a good deal at £600.
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