Holy fuck I legit don't know how to go on.
So in the next two weeks I have to finish a very big project at work. I have to interact with other people all the fucking now.
I honestly can't do this. I don't have the attention span and knowledge for this. "Social anxiety" makes it also insurmountable.
I would drop out, without any doubt, but IF I DROP OUT NOW I WOULDN'T GET MY GRADUATION. (We can get different job-specific degrees here by working in underpaid and dumb jobs, it's the biggest scam ever).
That would mean one thing for me:
I wasted my last three years in a underpaid job I absolutely hate and don't even get my degree for that. I hope you get what I mean.
I don't have anyone to talk about this. No friends, no gf, I tried to talk with my mother, but she can't give me any solutions. She is just sad and said things like "oh please don't end everything here" and other stuff. I don't judge her for that.
Wageslaving ruined my life and drove me even deeper into inceldom, because I physically aged so fucking hard in the last 3 years.
After that project I'll be able to become a NEET for like 1 year (I saved enough money for that), but firstly I have to finish it and this is already impossible for me.
But what then?
Wageslave in another job again?
I can't do this shit anymore. I would rather kill myself than continue working until I'm 70 years old.
The future frightens the shit out of me.
Only a big happening can save me.
I'm so sad that this coronavirus isn't deadly enough to make big changes.
I'm so sad that WW3 hasn't started yet and probably will never start.
Being a wageslave and an incel is unCOPEable.
So in the next two weeks I have to finish a very big project at work. I have to interact with other people all the fucking now.
I honestly can't do this. I don't have the attention span and knowledge for this. "Social anxiety" makes it also insurmountable.
I would drop out, without any doubt, but IF I DROP OUT NOW I WOULDN'T GET MY GRADUATION. (We can get different job-specific degrees here by working in underpaid and dumb jobs, it's the biggest scam ever).
That would mean one thing for me:
I wasted my last three years in a underpaid job I absolutely hate and don't even get my degree for that. I hope you get what I mean.
I don't have anyone to talk about this. No friends, no gf, I tried to talk with my mother, but she can't give me any solutions. She is just sad and said things like "oh please don't end everything here" and other stuff. I don't judge her for that.
Wageslaving ruined my life and drove me even deeper into inceldom, because I physically aged so fucking hard in the last 3 years.
After that project I'll be able to become a NEET for like 1 year (I saved enough money for that), but firstly I have to finish it and this is already impossible for me.
But what then?
Wageslave in another job again?
I can't do this shit anymore. I would rather kill myself than continue working until I'm 70 years old.
The future frightens the shit out of me.
Only a big happening can save me.
I'm so sad that this coronavirus isn't deadly enough to make big changes.
I'm so sad that WW3 hasn't started yet and probably will never start.
Being a wageslave and an incel is unCOPEable.
