Like when I think about it, it blows my mind how irrelevant and worthless i'am. I existed just to be a sick joke, get shit on, and then suffer and be alone forever. Never had an impact on anything, no one will remember me after i die, no one even cares that i exist. I might as well not have gotten born and absolutely nothing would have changed whatsoever. I just fucking wished someone would treat me as an equal or as human, the hatred inside me is completely justified if you've been treated like me or saw from an objective pov how vile and evil humanity is. I did many fucked up things myself, but i always knew i was wrong and i regretted it, i always had mercy and i always was considerate of others, but 99% of people just don't care about being fucked up and evil, they actually encourage it and will admire and respect you more the more you hurt and shit on others as long as you're not shitting on them.
