SuicideFuel I feel like alcoholmaxxing tonight but my conscious says no

[starcrapoo]

Its either I alcoholmaxx tonight to numb the pain of existence and loneliness, or I fall asleep after I play several hours of world of warcraft.

I fucked an escort the other day and felt good for a while then it dawned on me how normal people don't need escorts or alcohol to feel better.

They already have wives, girlfriends, children, and friends that they can talk to all day. They own homes, pay mortgages, have savings in stocks, etc...

Its either I alcoholmaxx every other night during the week or these thoughts overwhelm me even when laying down on my bed just staring at the wall or ceiling.

At the same time I think I might be showing signs of liver disease. I have been alcoholmaxxing since the age of 18 when I was in college.

 

[waste matter]

Brutal my condolences to alcoholcels

 

[SardonicArchmage]

Just alternate between weed and alchohol, this way you will fuck up both your brain and liver but much less than you would if you only coped with one of them, and you will be able to explore both copes
Never mix though - I learnt it the hard way on my own flesh

 

[Saigon Depression]

Are you feeling better?

 

[Caesercel]

Quit alcohol. Join a rehab if you have to