muharremabi
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When I see someones eyes glance toward my tooth and looks away permanently it makes me consider my subconscious frame clawing on the rope around my neck even as streams of blood pour from my bulging eye sockets. Anyone that says LOOKS don't rely in society and its all about confidence and the way you act is so unbelievably full of shit bluepilled cucks their whole kin ought to be shot through the mouth to understand what its like to instantly lose recognize of humans in your community just because you opened your mouth to show which you were glad for a second. Society has compelled me to think of how others see me constantly there is no different choice when you are continuously reminded every face you examine and every different face that wants to tell you and watch the way you react. Braces price properly over 20,000 for whats wrong with my teeth i've had four dentists and a pair of surgeons take a look at me thats the most inexpensive i should find. I cant go out into society anymore or it will manifest I don't recognize what it is but its inner me and I can sense it watching for an opportunity to display what I feel to those that made me go through all my life. I need to off myself earlier or soon i will definitely hurt someone, i'm a terrible subhuman for contemplating sharing my distress i was by no means alleged to be right here on this world i don't belong this world i need to die for the betterment of humanity. The more I come across people saying how smiling is very essential to making a first impression the more angry I get. This problem isn't always like a disability or anything you may diagnose, or not even a deformity in the eyes of normies and yet it has affected my existence negatively for the beyond decade or greater. I am almost 20 and all my life I have suffered from this due to the fact I can't talk to anybody. Anytime I need to grin or snigger I block myself because I don't forget my atrocious enamel and want to hide. I can't be myself and can't be social. I fucking hate my crooked teeth. And it's far the sort of shittiest trouble I can't fix because I don't have money, and I can't hold a activity or socialise because I lack humans skills.I am shit at all human interaction. No person, even people on here, will empathize. I’ve always tried to attend to my teeth by using brushing and flossing but they’re so ugly. I wish my mother and father might have helped me get braces whilst I become younger. My parents didn’t care and we were too poor. My mom couldn’t have enough money for it. I don’t experience assured smiling, I smile with my mouth closed. I hate taking photographs with my teeth showing. I get scared to smile in front of women sometimes. Once they see my tooth, they will scream like they saw an elephant man. It simply makes me so disenchanted that I can’t experience smiling. The country I live in has a horrible dental insurance. I want to fix them but it's literally impossible. I simply wanted to get it out of my chest. No one understands me. Everyone else I know has a wonderful smile and teeth. The only true solution for this is hanging myself on the ceiling. I'm screwed for life. I crave nothing but death.