I have completely lost my mind

[AutisticMonstrosity]

I am not on NoFap, but I haven't masturbated for 2-3 weeks. I have tried to watch some amateur videos from PornHub, but I just can't. I can't watch. I can't touch. I can get aroused and erection, no problem. But I am mentally totally broken, 100 % hopeless, I can't think of anything other than never having a girlfriend and family, I try to think what I could do, but realistically there's nothing I can do and that destroys me. I have tried to masturbate like 5 times, but very quickly I just change tabs. I missed my opportunity to visit an escort, now there's no-one here to meet.

 

[Deleted member 16390]

i hear there are foids larping as members in the sewers, try looking for a GF there,

 

[WØLF]

I can’t think of anything other than the fact that I will never be 6’3, 8 PSL, and have an 8.5” dick

 

[AmIjustDreaming]

I can’t think of anything other than the fact that I will never be 6’3, 8 PSL, and have an 8.5” dick

it eats away my sanity

 

[WawelDragon1683]

thinking about having a family just makes me want to kill myself. that's why i try to desensitize myself from my life. i pretend like im just a third person watching myself live my shit life.

 

[Mainländer]

I hope someday my mysoginy gets to a point I don't feel attracted to foids/porn anymore. Didn't work for me so far, no matter how odious foids are, I still desire their bodies.

 

[WØLF]

it eats away my sanity

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

 

[grondilu]

It sounds like your journey through hell has only just begun.

Good luck.

 

[Mountainbikecel]

are you white?

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

So now I have watched great content on PornHub for 45 minutes straight with tears in my eyes at the same time. Can't use sounds basically at all. I already had the slider so silent that PornHub allows without muting, but still couple screams were so loud that my neighbours heard. I can't cry loudly. I have not touched myself yet at all. I get and lose erection.

What is the most effective and quick way to lose interest in women?! SSRIs don't do it for me, finasteride is too dangerous otherwise, I would like to get castrated.

 

[Deleted member 32183]

What is the most effective and quick way to lose interest in women?! SSRIs don't do it for me, finasteride is too dangerous otherwise, I would like to get castrated.

caloric deficit
nutrient deficit
shit diet

fasting
zero carb

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

It sounds like your journey through hell has only just begun.

Good luck.

The current hell started in the August of 2015.

When I could cope that "I still have time"(inserting me with false hope of some miracle happening), I could be somewhat functional, but now the window of opportunity is closing or too late already.

are you white?

Finnish

caloric deficit
nutrient deficit
shit diet

fasting

I am already all of those. Still haven't gone to the grocery store.

I hope someday my mysoginy gets to a point I don't feel attracted to foids/porn anymore. Didn't work for me so far, no matter how odious foids are, I still desire their bodies.

I desire women in every way. I don't hate women at all, I love them more than anything else actually. They are different from men though (and manly women are not attractive). They should not vote and they should not work outside home. In their heart most women really wish that men would place them again in their natural place.

 

[Saigon Depression]

ti try to desensitize myself from my life. i pretend like im just a third person watching myself live my shit life.

I've been trying to achieve something like this as well.

 

[InvisibleCel]

I’ve lost my mind

I’m the joker baby AHAHAHAHAHA

 

[Izayacel]

Good your atleast mentally though and can reject some urges.

 

[_realist_]

Time going down the drain and getting older is pure insanity fuel.

 

[MarquisDeSade]

thinking about having a family just makes me want to kill myself. that's why i try to desensitize myself from my life. i pretend like im just a third person watching myself live my shit life.

I like to pretend that everyday I'm living in hell, just kidding, I don't really have to pretend.

Time going down the drain and getting older is pure insanity fuel.

If this world continues as it is and I keep living I imagine myself wheelchair bound sitting in my own shit and urine looking miserably outside from a window out of a nursing home thinking to myself that I should of ate the bullet earlier in life, but by then you're too old to wheelchair your ass out the door to steal somebody's gun to blow your own brains out. I am literally terrified of this thought getting older, it haunts me now. I'm currently middle aged. *sighs*

 

[dirtykombatcel]

I can’t think of anything other than the fact that I will never be 6’3, 8 PSL, and have an 8.5” dick

>tfw will never be irl jotaro

 

[Jerek]

Do noporn, not nofap. I was trapped in the nofap shit once and after a while my sperm became yellow.

Now it's normal again, but still.

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

Do noporn, not nofap. I was trapped in the nofap shit once and after a while my sperm became yellow.

Now it's normal again, but still.

NoFap should be avoided, if you are truecel. I've been on an involuntary NoFap, because too mentally broken to masturbate. What would the no porn achieve? I watch only normal (real-life) couples having normal, intimate sex. Can that be harmful? In any case, I have to endure "aural porn" regularly, whether I liked it or not.

If two things changed, my life would be much more bearable:

- I could do my normal things without seeing attractive, young foreign men every time (with native women), at least 9 times out of 10 if I see a foreigner, it is a young man (immigration to this area is a new phenomenon, massive catastrophe for the local sex ratio of prime-aged happened in 2015-16)
- I would not hear and see neighbours or not have them at all (with moneymaxxing this is possible if I move away to somewhere remote alone in own house)

Actually if I had higher IQ and enough money, both could be done. I could move to another country. Like Ukraine, Belarus or Moldova, for example.

 

[Deleted member 33216]

I hope someday my mysoginy gets to a point I don't feel attracted to foids/porn anymore. Didn't work for me so far, no matter how odious foids are, I still desire their bodies.

Try thinking of their attitudes, their Twitter threads bashing short men, their crappy progressive ideas, their emotional instability, their polyamory, etc.

It works for me. I can't stand them anymore. Indeed, we all are victims of our biological needs but we also have a brain we can utilize to our advantage.

A hot foid is like a crappy gift that comes in a flashy, appealing box; beautiful on the outside, ugly on the inside. Now think about this: Which one will you be using more, the flashy box? Or the gift?

 

[Indari]

So now I have watched great content on PornHub for 45 minutes straight with tears in my eyes at the same time. Can't use sounds basically at all. I already had the slider so silent that PornHub allows without muting, but still couple screams were so loud that my neighbours heard. I can't cry loudly. I have not touched myself yet at all. I get and lose erection.

What is the most effective and quick way to lose interest in women?! SSRIs don't do it for me, finasteride is too dangerous otherwise, I would like to get castrated.

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[AutisticMonstrosity]

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Did psilocybin affect your desire for women?

 

[Indari]

Did psilocybin affect your desire for women?

my coom drive increased when I felt better

Can't use sounds basically at all. I already had the slider so silent that PornHub allows without muting, but still couple screams were so loud that my neighbours heard. I can't cry loudly.

dafuk does this mean???

 

[AutisticMonstrosity]

my coom drive increased when I felt better

You stopped taking it, why? I myself feel better when my "coom drive" is lesser (basically this lasts only a few hours after climaxing).

dafuk does this mean???

I am embarrassed that my neighbours heard that I watched porn last night (now I can't say to them that I hear you having sex, they would embarrass me by countering that we hear you jerking off). Because the sounds stopped and started suddenly when I muted and tried to adjust the volume, everybody understood that it was not real woman, but came from electronic devices. For the same reason (lack of sound-proofing) I can't cry or talk private things on the phone or voice-chat or even have the courage to call an escort.

 

[Indari]

You stopped taking it, why? I myself feel better when my "coom drive" is lesser (basically this lasts only a few hours after climaxing).


I am embarrassed that my neighbours heard that I watched porn last night (now I can't say to them that I hear you having sex, they would embarrass me by countering that we hear you jerking off). Because the sounds stopped and started suddenly when I muted and tried to adjust the volume, everybody understood that it was not real woman, but came from electronic devices. For the same reason (lack of sound-proofing) I can't cry or talk private things on the phone or voice-chat or even have the courage to call an escort.

I'm still taking them. Not sure what they're doing if anything though. Your walls are that thin? Brutal.

 

[lobsterfan]

I hope someday my mysoginy gets to a point I don't feel attracted to foids/porn anymore. Didn't work for me so far, no matter how odious foids are, I still desire their bodies.

aderall kills sex drive

 

[Studiocel]

stay sane bro

 

[Pitar62]

i hear there are foids larping as members in the sewers, try looking for a GF there,

 

[InMyCellInHell]

I can’t think of anything other than the fact that I will never be 6’3, 8 PSL, and have an 8.5” dick

 

[Mainländer]

Try thinking of their attitudes, their Twitter threads bashing short men, their crappy progressive ideas, their emotional instability, their polyamory, etc.

It works for me. I can't stand them anymore. Indeed, we all are victims of our biological needs but we also have a brain we can utilize to our advantage.

A hot foid is like a crappy gift that comes in a flashy, appealing box; beautiful on the outside, ugly on the inside. Now think about this: Which one will you be using more, the flashy box? Or the gift?

High IQ, thanks for the tips.

aderall kills sex drive

It's not available in my country