Had similar experience minus your last psych. Saw four, three psychologist, one psychiatrist, all much older men who didn’t want to believe a word of what I was telling them. It was a constant game of not wanting to go too far in details about my thoughts as well. If I was ever 100% honest they’d psych ward me instantly. The psychiatrist I saw threatened it when I started not wanting to show up to hear the same old thing when I just wanted my meds adjusted.
The most hilarious was one I had to see for my autismbux eval, he was sympathetic but bluepilled. His office was filled with pictures of his wife and six kids. By the end of it he simply coalesced all his normalfag talking points and said “well, you just got to find someone to really love you for you, you know? Something to keep you going!” gesturing to his family photo. I tried not to laugh until I got home.
I’ve since not bothered, but have a feeling I’ll be forced to do it all again. It’s tiresome and pointless. Psychologists especially are trained to deal with your mental issues like you would a woman’s — by talking it out or referring to something like CBT or mindfulness. Men with even a modicum of self-awareness and knowledge are not going to be effected by this at all. A normalfag would, because their depression is often moderate, and can be coped with easily with the usual platitudes and low dosage drugs. Anyone whose been trying to crawl out of the abyss for a decade isn’t going tilt to the usual shit. It’s futile.