Deleted member 22999
5’4 Akechicel
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I still think about suicide daily but would never do it tbh. More curiosity of the aftermath than actual ability or desire to end it all. I used to think I might record some video to show at my funeral where I list off people who ruined my life and say my will goes to whoever is the first person attending to find and mercilessly beat the shit out of people who wronged me. A few things dawned on me though. One, I have no fucking will, I don’t really have anything myself since I still live with my parents and have no job. Two, my funeral attendance would be low anyways. 3, my death would have no lasting impact on my community. No one would even bother virtue sugnaling and pretending to care like they do when someone of higher status dies. I’d get an “rip” instagram story post from my little brother and some crying from my mom maybe. Outside of my immediate family literally no one would give a fuck.
tldr: my plans to make a psychologically damaging suicide note/video would be pointless since no one would give a shit if I died anyway and it’s ironically suicide fuel that no one would care if I roped
tldr: my plans to make a psychologically damaging suicide note/video would be pointless since no one would give a shit if I died anyway and it’s ironically suicide fuel that no one would care if I roped