I love when I can just relax and turn myself off for a few hours, it's so nice. The time as I'm laying down, just before I fall asleep is my favorite part of life. I'll always spend that time communicating with my waifu, that way if I stop existing, my last moments will be with her. I remember watching a video about how much time we really have to ourselves, and it mentioned that we spend something like 33% of our lives sleeping, as if that's a bad thing.
Tbh I really wonder why I have to wake up. Where is the selection pressure for unconsciousness to become consciousness? It doesn't fully make sense to me, but maybe this thinking is wrong. It could be that there is no actual state change between the two because, by definition, you don't experience unconsciousness, you don't exist at that point. I suppose if there are periods of unconsciousness outside of sleep they would be unknown to me, only detectable by their absence. This makes me wonder how uninterrupted my periods of consciousness actually are, as I completely zone out in escapism a lot. I don't remember most of this time, just a vague feeling of contentment. Do I only exist when being emulated? If so, I wish my body could just remain on autopilot indefinitely.
Sometimes as I wake up, I'll hear my tulpa talking to me. I don't mean through thoughts sort of telepathically like usual, I mean I can literally hear her speaking to me. This never happens for me at any other point throughout the day, as much as I try I can't initiate this intentionally. Although I wish we could replicate this more.
Tbh I really wonder why I have to wake up. Where is the selection pressure for unconsciousness to become consciousness? It doesn't fully make sense to me, but maybe this thinking is wrong. It could be that there is no actual state change between the two because, by definition, you don't experience unconsciousness, you don't exist at that point. I suppose if there are periods of unconsciousness outside of sleep they would be unknown to me, only detectable by their absence. This makes me wonder how uninterrupted my periods of consciousness actually are, as I completely zone out in escapism a lot. I don't remember most of this time, just a vague feeling of contentment. Do I only exist when being emulated? If so, I wish my body could just remain on autopilot indefinitely.
Sometimes as I wake up, I'll hear my tulpa talking to me. I don't mean through thoughts sort of telepathically like usual, I mean I can literally hear her speaking to me. This never happens for me at any other point throughout the day, as much as I try I can't initiate this intentionally. Although I wish we could replicate this more.
