Angry_runt
Cursed OGcel
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I don't know how to square how I was raised to be a man and how I've learned to be one successfully. I'll admit, I've been a long time lurker after my wedding fell apart and I went looking for answers in places I didn't want to look. I had always been put off by these kinds of circles, being fairly liberal. I was a little wary of being contaminated with the ideology.
I think I'm only really coming into an appreciation now in life (33) of my sexual value and my value as a partner. I guess I'm what you'd call a Chad, always been pretty successful when it comes to sleeping with women, even when I was a loser. The harder I've worked at on being a good man, the less successful it seems I am with women. But I'm also aware that a lot of my motivation to be a good man comes from fear of the imagined potential to be a monster.
I get a lot of female attention as a man. And I don't know what to do with it. I know what I could do with it, and that's fuck a lot of beautiful, young women. And while everything in my biology is telling me that is what I should do, my Christian upbringing is choking my throttle like a governor. And I know that repressing any healthy drive only pathologizes it. I was pretty good at being an asshole lecher, but I just don't know if my libido is something that I can honor consciously and ethically. But I have to find a way, because porn is a terrible coping strategy.
What useful insight does someone like that have for someone like us?