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As early as 10 years old, I remember thinking that this life might be some kind of cruel joke that everyone and everything must be in on except for me. I guess that makes sense being around the time I developed out of thin fucking air a still untreated psychological condition that made me anxious doing just about anything for a long ass time.
I used to have hope about the future, thinking I'd live a normal happy life. I was crippled by social anxiety literally as early as pre-k which was left untreated forever until I emerged a shell of a human after high school. I couldn't do anything. Got kicked out of uni for being too autistic, and I have no will to study anymore anyways. Doing well in school used to be one of my only sources of pride but I was never even a good student. I only did well in easy subjects that involved English because I read books all the time instead of slaying elementary/middle school pussy. I still got A's and B's in other subjects because it was easy ass grade school. I always thought this meant my future was secure. I might be a fking loser now but if I study hard the good guy always gets the girl in the end right? Wrong fucko. Once I got to higher level college preparatory classes and later college my complete lack of any social acumen completely fucked me over. I was never good enough in stem type subjects to just studymaxx all fkin day by myself and do well. Being socially adjusted helps a fuckton in uni but i had none of that.
This is a conspiracy.
This can't be real. No one can just live an unfortunate life forever with no respite at the end.
WRONG AGAIN! SHITHEAD!! TURD BEETLE !!! COCK WIPE !!
No it has to be a conspiracy. There have been too many instances of shittery that have uniquely fucked me because I'm me. What are the odds that such a being as myself could even be created and undergo every trial I've had to go through. It's the perfect storm for this bullshittery. I remember so many instances as a kid in school being in some fucked up, uncomfortable situation stemming from ocd, social anxiety, my weird issue that started when I was 10, and thinking that I am the only person in the world that has had to deal with this shit and feeling inferior all the time. Shit feels like a conspiracy now living among a bunch of fucking normalfags with their miserable jobs and daily grind that I don't know how haven't lead to mass suicides. It is cartoonishly nightmarish. I have to avoid mentioning suicide online now for fear that another fbi agent will break through my fucking window while I'm fapping to boku no pico and whip out a pepper spray squirting dildo to fuck me in the ass and mouth with and finish off by spraying the rest of it on my face and proceed to handcuff me and pat himself on the back from "stopping someone from hurting themselves today". Fucking unreal. This life is fake.
Because of this shitty ass conspiracy, I am doomed to a subpar life of wagecuckery, and try as I might, my natural retardation may keep me from ever being paid well. This world wants me fucking dead!
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