I know what you mean. It's happening to me too. I remember worrying about myself three years ago. I was worried that I was headed down a path that I couldn't turn back from. Here's something to think about. Did you know that one of the signs of losing your sanity is you worrying about not being sane? A normal, sane person would never legitimately worry about going insane. There are no signs of it ever happening to them, they have no idea what it would be like. It's when you actually start to worry about it that you're probably losing it. And if you and I were both worried about it a few years ago, what does that say in terms of how far gone we are today?
There's something else I'd like to say as well. I see a lot of posts on here saying how one day the ugly loser men will fight back. I don't really see it happening, at least not in the traditional pitchfork and protest way because most of us are inferior, high inhibition losers, despite the tough talking that goes on around here. If you regularly post here you're most likely losing in life due to being born with bad characteristics, which I know has been said many times before. but to think that inferior men would get up and fight back? it goes against our very nature. if you were bullied in school and didn't stand up for yourself then, you're probably not going to stand up for yourself now. i think a better way to fight back is to follow strategies set out by users like @BlkPillPres, the one whereby we get the H.R. 5 Act passed. Let society fall on itself, then if/when it does we can swoop in and take it back. The thing about fighting is it takes a lot of energy, we are better off saving it and using it on more effective means.
The last thing I'll say to you, and i don't mean to scare you, but tbh you are at an increased risk of becoming a sex offender. your desires are very strong for contact, which means you're not far removed from trying to touch a woman in public. so i would be very careful if I was you. you should jack off before going out in public to try and stave off any sexual desires and prevent yourself from doing something that will earn you a criminal record and make your life a living hell compared to what it already is. because at this point, you and I have nothing to lose, so the temptation to grab a woman's ass or breasts or whatever becomes more enticing. due to your isolation you've probably lost what little socialization you had gained in school when you were around others. so be careful man, don't let your sexual desires get the better of you. or do let them. nothing matters in the end anyways, we all die and return to dust.