TheNEET
mentally crippled by sleepoverless teen years
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- May 27, 2018
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I hate this. Fuck high-T males, fuck all of them: the tall ones, the jacked ones and the ones with strong jaws and face features. I prefer being around women or soy boys -- they hate me and they're annoying but at least they're not threatening. I avoid walking at night, I avoid gyms with muscly men etc. I always have my pepper spray and I have my finger on the trigger whenever I'm around high-T guys but my reaction time is so slow and I'm so clumsy that I'm afraid that I couldn't defend myself. They can just grab my weak wrists with a single strong big hand and it's over -- I can only beg for mercy at this point.
I'm scared of getting killed but I'm even more scared of getting raped. I know no one would defend me, I'd have to commit suicide afterwards myself. No one would take my side, if gay chad (honestly he wouldn't even have to be gay; raping a guy in the ass is pure humiliation tactic, only the bottoms are really gay and pathetic because they get masochistic pleasure from humiliation) fucked me, he'd probably take photos and boast about it everywhere and normies would call him a national hero for destroying smelly inkler's toxic masculinity. Chad fucking us into submission is literally ITcucks' number 1 fantasy -- they wrote literal fanfics about it.
I feel so humiliated just by standing next to them. In fact, I avoid crowds on men in general because I look like a huge pussy even next to completely average men. I still get PTSD flashbacks from changing rooms before PE classes in school: everyone had strong chests, arms and body hair while I stood there with my androgynous mess of a body -- to this day I only have some fluff on my chest and around belly button, the average 14-year-old boy probably mogs me.
Ironically high-T guys are the only people who seem to treat me nicely and with dignity… but that's even worse and more humiliating, because i know the reason. They don't need to be aggressive towards me because they'd won before the conversation started. No need to assert dominance because everyone can just look at our bodies and immediately see who's the alpha and who's the beta. I hate masculine socialization because I'm sensitive and feel sad when people are mean to me (even "jokingly"), so high-T men being nice to me feels kinda good but at the same time it's so humiliating because it's more about being patronizing than genuine kindness -- they're treating me like a girl.
I wish I could become high-T but the natural methods don't work for someone this low-T and doctors won't even test my levels ("you're young, you get erect often, you're fine "). Besides, I'm afraid it's way too late now. I'll never be a real man, I'll always be humiliated by stronger guys, I'll always be afraid of them and they'll always signal to foids my uselessness as a male by being condescending to me.
I'm scared of getting killed but I'm even more scared of getting raped. I know no one would defend me, I'd have to commit suicide afterwards myself. No one would take my side, if gay chad (honestly he wouldn't even have to be gay; raping a guy in the ass is pure humiliation tactic, only the bottoms are really gay and pathetic because they get masochistic pleasure from humiliation) fucked me, he'd probably take photos and boast about it everywhere and normies would call him a national hero for destroying smelly inkler's toxic masculinity. Chad fucking us into submission is literally ITcucks' number 1 fantasy -- they wrote literal fanfics about it.
I feel so humiliated just by standing next to them. In fact, I avoid crowds on men in general because I look like a huge pussy even next to completely average men. I still get PTSD flashbacks from changing rooms before PE classes in school: everyone had strong chests, arms and body hair while I stood there with my androgynous mess of a body -- to this day I only have some fluff on my chest and around belly button, the average 14-year-old boy probably mogs me.
Ironically high-T guys are the only people who seem to treat me nicely and with dignity… but that's even worse and more humiliating, because i know the reason. They don't need to be aggressive towards me because they'd won before the conversation started. No need to assert dominance because everyone can just look at our bodies and immediately see who's the alpha and who's the beta. I hate masculine socialization because I'm sensitive and feel sad when people are mean to me (even "jokingly"), so high-T men being nice to me feels kinda good but at the same time it's so humiliating because it's more about being patronizing than genuine kindness -- they're treating me like a girl.
I wish I could become high-T but the natural methods don't work for someone this low-T and doctors won't even test my levels ("you're young, you get erect often, you're fine "). Besides, I'm afraid it's way too late now. I'll never be a real man, I'll always be humiliated by stronger guys, I'll always be afraid of them and they'll always signal to foids my uselessness as a male by being condescending to me.