I'm glad I have made this mistake for only a short period of time so I could learn from it. Was a Russian foid, I was 'competing' with a Brazilian guy, despite our competition in this area we were still great friends. It had been going on for awhile, it was part work related and we had all gone out together as a group several times and been together a lot. I really thought I had a chance with her. One time, we were watching a film together in the common area and she puts her leg over mine, dangling her shoe and looking at me, she then sighs and takes it off herself. She then rests her head on my shoulder, knowing I can do absolutely nothing as we are surrounded by people.
She had been doing many of these types of things for awhile, in areas where I could no nothing, and it was driving me insane! I was horny as fuck! Making me crazy!
Anyway, we all went out together a few more times and I thought I was making progress, using my new 'gaming' PUA 'skills' and thinking I can win this, making progress, doing 'text game' and everything else.
Then one day my Brazilian friend forwards me a text she sent him, he had teased her about liking me, she said: 'it's impossible for us to be in a relationship, it will never happen, I don't want to give him false hope, he's such a good friend, I just like to hug him like a big Teddy Bear!'
My friend: k k k bro (laughing in Brazilian)
Me: ......................
The whole time she was just cock-teasing me, torturing me for her own twisted amusement.
An older English woman (who this Russian had actually bullied like the Alpha bitch she was), when I told her 'nothing was going to happen' as she had also seen what had been going on for awhile and just nodded knowingly. She asked whether I watched Big Brother. I said no. She said it's what a lot of girls do, the same as on the show, they're bored, it's for their own entertainment. That day an older Indian woman who told me she had had an abortion asked if I would want to meet up with her after the work assignment ended. I politely declined.
With all this, did I stop with the Russia? No. I tried to plan New Year together and was going to try kiss her when the fireworks went off. It was almost arranged but another work colleague who was supposed to have a house party bailed. I later tried inviting her out. She eventually blocked me on FB.
Delusion is a powerful thing.
