giga incel trait
I've been always a part of some online communiteehee since like 8/9
I used to spend all days on forums about programming, Linux, games, roleplaying etc. then I discovered imageboards, chatrooms and then meme groups on Facebook became popular in Poland and then imageboards and this forum again
I went through at least like 30 communities and even became a mod on some smaller ones, but they either fell apart (forums are now a boomer-exclusive domain, they're either deleted, abandoned or populated by a few gigaautistic boomers) or I became disinterested in them because they became infested with normies
this is pretty much the only form of socialization I've experienced and all my information about interacting with people comes from online forums
this manner of human interaction is the ONLY one I understand
I'm used to the fact that you can just randomly tune in and only reply to things that interest you
and similarly you can just throw topics into aether and they can be ignored or picked up by people who are interested in it, there's no coercion
actual dialogue requires A LOT more attention and it feels like holding each other hostage cos when someone throws a topic you're not interested in, you can't just ignore it, you have to interact, it's very stressful
that's why despite spending years worth of time on these forums, I never really managed to find online friends -- I'm unable to interact outside the forum format, I get extremely nervous when I get PMs and it's very likely that I'll just ghost them