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I need to vent.
Every second of my life is filled with stress and anxiety. I can't go out of my house unless I look "perfect". I spend minutes, sometimes hours just staring in a mirror before I go outside, even if it's just to a shop. When I am anywhere outside my house, I feel like every single person is observing me, mocking me. It's like I am walking around naked. I overthink everything I do. The way i'm walking, what i'm wearing. I imagine everyone pointing at me and discussing how weird I am. The only place I can escape this are forests and abandoned places where no one else is around. That's why I love spending hours in such places. Anywhere else, it feels like everyone is out to get me.
I also don't know what I look like. Every time I see my reflection I see something different. I always look ugly but some days I can actually identify myself in the mirror and see human-like features but other days it's like i'm looking at a blank page. I look away and I forget what I look like. On those days I have no motivation to do anything. I just sit in my bed all day, wondering why I was born.
Does anyone else have this?
Every second of my life is filled with stress and anxiety. I can't go out of my house unless I look "perfect". I spend minutes, sometimes hours just staring in a mirror before I go outside, even if it's just to a shop. When I am anywhere outside my house, I feel like every single person is observing me, mocking me. It's like I am walking around naked. I overthink everything I do. The way i'm walking, what i'm wearing. I imagine everyone pointing at me and discussing how weird I am. The only place I can escape this are forests and abandoned places where no one else is around. That's why I love spending hours in such places. Anywhere else, it feels like everyone is out to get me.
I also don't know what I look like. Every time I see my reflection I see something different. I always look ugly but some days I can actually identify myself in the mirror and see human-like features but other days it's like i'm looking at a blank page. I look away and I forget what I look like. On those days I have no motivation to do anything. I just sit in my bed all day, wondering why I was born.
Does anyone else have this?
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