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The quarantine has given me a lot of time to think about this. The more I think about it, the more insane it feels.
Nearly every single person I have met in my life has treated me like garbage, either as soon as I met them or in the hours/days/weeks/months after. Even the "friends" I have made have all ridiculed me sooner or later. I feel like any group that I became a part of over the course of my life have only accepted me to be the butt of jokes. They all make fun of me and they disguise this as light-hearted humor, when it's clearly not. They know that it affects me unless they are completely fucking retarded.
I feel like this is more than just my looks. I know many people just as ugly as me and even uglier who still post pictures of them going out to parties, being in bed with their girlfriends etc.
This has to be also the way I was raised. I am way too passive. I have had the worst combination of parents a young boy growing up could have. A physically and mentally abusive whore mother and a cuckold beta bitch step-father. There was no way I could've ever succeeded with that upbringing. As a result, I have spent all my life being a doormat. A comic relief character. |Due to my mother destroying all my self-confidence and my father never teaching me how to be a man I was never able to stand up for myself.
Since a young age I have been "complimented" so many times by old people who told me that i'm "well-mannered" and "polite" jfl. The first time I heard that was when it was truly over for me.
Nearly every single person I have met in my life has treated me like garbage, either as soon as I met them or in the hours/days/weeks/months after. Even the "friends" I have made have all ridiculed me sooner or later. I feel like any group that I became a part of over the course of my life have only accepted me to be the butt of jokes. They all make fun of me and they disguise this as light-hearted humor, when it's clearly not. They know that it affects me unless they are completely fucking retarded.
I feel like this is more than just my looks. I know many people just as ugly as me and even uglier who still post pictures of them going out to parties, being in bed with their girlfriends etc.
This has to be also the way I was raised. I am way too passive. I have had the worst combination of parents a young boy growing up could have. A physically and mentally abusive whore mother and a cuckold beta bitch step-father. There was no way I could've ever succeeded with that upbringing. As a result, I have spent all my life being a doormat. A comic relief character. |Due to my mother destroying all my self-confidence and my father never teaching me how to be a man I was never able to stand up for myself.
Since a young age I have been "complimented" so many times by old people who told me that i'm "well-mannered" and "polite" jfl. The first time I heard that was when it was truly over for me.
