Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I can't stop. If I don't have a tv show (usually rewatching a sitcom I've already seen plenty of times before), I get really antsy, bored and even anxious.
I really want to stop but I can't seem to be able to. I tried many times but I just can't for some reason. Not even music is a good replacement, when I'm not watching a show it feels ... somehow "lonely" and "quiet". Those aren't the right words, but I can't think of the right words. It just feels so empty and boring and strange to be alone with my thoughts without voices from a sitcom distracting me.
Yeah I guess that's it, music allows you to think so that's why I can't even listen to that, but tv shows or whatever take just enough of your attention to inhibit any thoughts. I've been doing this for so many years now, probably a decade or more, so I can't even stop. I can't even play video games anymore, I just have to have a tv show on. Watching stuff takes a lot less energy and focus than playing video games, maybe I'm ADD cause games are too much for me nowadays, too much effort.
I really want to stop but I can't seem to be able to. I tried many times but I just can't for some reason. Not even music is a good replacement, when I'm not watching a show it feels ... somehow "lonely" and "quiet". Those aren't the right words, but I can't think of the right words. It just feels so empty and boring and strange to be alone with my thoughts without voices from a sitcom distracting me.
Yeah I guess that's it, music allows you to think so that's why I can't even listen to that, but tv shows or whatever take just enough of your attention to inhibit any thoughts. I've been doing this for so many years now, probably a decade or more, so I can't even stop. I can't even play video games anymore, I just have to have a tv show on. Watching stuff takes a lot less energy and focus than playing video games, maybe I'm ADD cause games are too much for me nowadays, too much effort.