Here's the thing: I don't think women/sex were a strong enough incentive to do the gargantuan amount of work a failure like me would have to do (maybe it's cause I'm low T 95% of the time). Even as a teen I knew women don't like me and I won't have a chance unless I somehow became rich. Many years before the blackpill or anything.
I really, really, really want love, sex, cuddling etc... When I do want it I'm tortured by not having it. Those are the moments when I'm high T. But I think that the rest of the time I'm low T, because it's not enough of a motivator for me to actually go out and do all the shit that I'd only do for the purpose of getting pussy.
Like, there's so much shit that a male mostly does for pussy. Working out, expanding a social circle, getting social skills, trying to make a lot of money etc... yeah people do this for a lot of other reasons, but at its core the first and foremost motivator is still just pussy. People just forget that that is the motivator since it takes a long time to get good at those things and so they really convince themselves it's not the reason.
Idk, maybe I'm spewing bullshit. I just feel like I lacked the motivation that most guys seem to base their lives around. My autistic ass instead was much more content being on the PC 24/7. Unfortunately I do have moments of very, very high T in which I am TORTURED by lack of motivation when I'm low T. God damn I want me some pussy. Ehh whatever, this thread is bullshit, maybe the many years of depression is the reason.
I really, really, really want love, sex, cuddling etc... When I do want it I'm tortured by not having it. Those are the moments when I'm high T. But I think that the rest of the time I'm low T, because it's not enough of a motivator for me to actually go out and do all the shit that I'd only do for the purpose of getting pussy.
Like, there's so much shit that a male mostly does for pussy. Working out, expanding a social circle, getting social skills, trying to make a lot of money etc... yeah people do this for a lot of other reasons, but at its core the first and foremost motivator is still just pussy. People just forget that that is the motivator since it takes a long time to get good at those things and so they really convince themselves it's not the reason.
Idk, maybe I'm spewing bullshit. I just feel like I lacked the motivation that most guys seem to base their lives around. My autistic ass instead was much more content being on the PC 24/7. Unfortunately I do have moments of very, very high T in which I am TORTURED by lack of motivation when I'm low T. God damn I want me some pussy. Ehh whatever, this thread is bullshit, maybe the many years of depression is the reason.
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