"If my status in life were better, I would think this world to be a magnificent place, and I could truly enjoy life. If I was satisfied with my circumstances in life, I would be able to enjoy this beautiful world to its fullest. I can’t be satisfied with life if I’m a virgin and girls are repulsed by me. It’s such a tragedy." - ER
It's both. We are disgruntled individuals living in a world that's inherently meaningless. The only meaning our life will have is the one we attach to it. Alas, there's nothing we hold valuable or important. We are haunted by our inferiority and loneliness to the point where reality has morphed into a dystopian hell, devoid of meaning and joy. I believe if I received love and validation growing up I would've been able to find meaning.