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Nofap feels great except when it doesn't. The increase in vitality, testosterone and the intelectual benefits are encouraging, and with enough willpower it is possible to overcome the moments or lust by smoking, distracting yourself, etc - these can be difficult but they aren't the most difficult aspect of nofap by far.
The most difficult aspect is what starts to happen to me usually after about two weeks. My theory is that it happens when you actually start believing you will never fap ever again - you might say that in the first few days but psychologically you don't believe it really, it takes a while to sink in. What I'm referring to is an empty feeling, an anxiety, numbness. Like when you feel you are being restrained by something and no action you perform can free you. Its not even painful or anything, its a mild discomfort. You start asking yourself if it will ever go away. Everything seems disinteresting, grey.
Its impossible to feel any intense feelings in this state. I'm not able to feel rage or disgust or any motivation for that matter. Pure nihilism.
Its like a moderate hunger, insecurity. I wish these moments were painful, intense, dark, despair inducing. It would be way better, at least these states can be motivating.
Giving in and masturbating indicates that you prefer being a ignorant slave than blackpilled. The blackpill means being constantly aware or the nature of reality without comforting oneself with illusions, and you can't really do that if you haven't experienced what I described for prolongued periods of time. Also masturbation increases your karmic baggage because masturbation is just another attachement to the material plane so have fun burning in hell
The most difficult aspect is what starts to happen to me usually after about two weeks. My theory is that it happens when you actually start believing you will never fap ever again - you might say that in the first few days but psychologically you don't believe it really, it takes a while to sink in. What I'm referring to is an empty feeling, an anxiety, numbness. Like when you feel you are being restrained by something and no action you perform can free you. Its not even painful or anything, its a mild discomfort. You start asking yourself if it will ever go away. Everything seems disinteresting, grey.
Its impossible to feel any intense feelings in this state. I'm not able to feel rage or disgust or any motivation for that matter. Pure nihilism.
Its like a moderate hunger, insecurity. I wish these moments were painful, intense, dark, despair inducing. It would be way better, at least these states can be motivating.
Giving in and masturbating indicates that you prefer being a ignorant slave than blackpilled. The blackpill means being constantly aware or the nature of reality without comforting oneself with illusions, and you can't really do that if you haven't experienced what I described for prolongued periods of time. Also masturbation increases your karmic baggage because masturbation is just another attachement to the material plane so have fun burning in hell