OP, you're not alone, dont let the normies make you feel bad, and NEVER EVER think about commiting something against your life, because that's what normies want.
I know it can be hard, but if you didn't did it yet, tell your parents about it, if possible gather camera footage of abuses being commited against you and other students to use as proof againt those who bully you.
Look at youtube self defense channels and learn a little about fighting, fighting one of your bullies and ''rekting'' he can potentially stop or stop temporaly the bullying, if possible fight with a weaker skinny bully for advantage, the thing about fighting is to not be afraid to hurt the other guy, because if you're afraid of that you already lost. Also, hit him in a ''combo'', don't give him any chance to defend itself to win easier.
If when you're at your home you start remenbering the abuses done against you, put some headphones and blast HAPPY music, don't let bad thoughs enter your head.
And at last i know this can be hard, but try to befriend others kids who also are bullied so you and them can protect yourselfes mutually.
NEVER let bullies, on real life, or on the internet or whatever reduce the great person you are.
