Blackpill Nothing improved since 2018.

[smith]

Gym maxxed.
Brain maxxed. Exams passes great af, currently in med school. Not even larping.
Improved health, sleeping habits, social situation.
Thought I was finally ready.

Asked my crush whether she would perhaps want to go out someday in October, got shut down and rejected, brutally. First time I ever actually expressed my feelings towards the person I longed for.

I have become so void, so nihilist, I literally care about nothing, I have completely separated myself from all my "friends", stopped logging on to social media, I only lurk there to get group info on the studies. A hardcore cynicism replaced my previous worldview of hope and belief.
For 6 months, since then, I have felt nothing but utter void. I don't feel anything. I fear social interactions. I have not socialized during these 6 months one bit, because I stopped feeling any need to get new friends. I don't feel it, even though it's naturally what anyone normal would do. These people seem just all too tiresome to talk to.
I wasn't able to get rid of my love for so long, and am now unable to develop romantic feelings towards absolutely any girl. The previous love died after 5 years, but I am romantically defunct.
Porn became boring and disgusting about 3 months ago. Youtube became insufferable about 1 week ago, I solely watch some chess videos there, so as occupy my mind, and avoid anything else like the plague, I despise people who post all this bullshit and comment on it.

I failed.

I wish I had the strength to finally kill myself

 

[Spioenkop1]

Just ask her out bro. You are just afraid of rejection. Forget her.
so I just summarized what a 100 dollar hour therapist will tell you.
just advise 3 is good. Don’t take it personal. With stronger jaw line she would have gone wet and see your real good personality.

 

[Incel of the GLA]

My story is similar to this and let me guess, not a single one of your friends even bothered to check on you too

 

[BrapZilian]

It's over.

 

[Billowel]

the only being that inkels can turn to for help is god.It's nice to cope by thinking that someday you will finally get a gf.Let me tell you the bad news.it's not going to fucking happen.

 

[zangano1]

wish I had the strength to finally kill myself

Same

 

[VirginAutistManlet]

The most depressing thing is when you maxx something, and you realize it did nothing to help you improve your chances with foids, nothing changed, and nobody gives a shit.

 

[Spioenkop1]

The most depressing thing is when you maxx something, and you realize it did nothing to help you improve your chances with foids, nothing changed, and nobody gives a shit.

Do you have examples in your own life.