i mean what's the point of my existence . i am not some high IQ one who could add something to humanity . even my genes aren't good enough to make my children happy . love is a meme that can't exist and everything is determined by looks . honestly we human love each other based on looks , i won't love an ugly woman and no woman will ever love me . it's like everyone is simply pretending to love each other or care about each other. family , friends , community is just us using each other to get some validation and attention so we may feel good about ourselves and achieve commune interest . the moment one do not provide that validation or choose other interest he get outcast ed . i can work any job but they will easily replace me like i was never existing . after death everyone will just forget about you and move on with their life . they will meet others , have the same fun you used to have with you , woman will keep loving another men and fucking them , have children like you never existed .
i can literally live with minimum comfort , food and people so trying so hard to improve my life is pointless, having more won't change my state , i am as i am now and after . tbh , friends family and even woman can't add me any more value . i don't need their validation or attention . they aren't special , they are just souls somehow get to be in a body that was created by tow couple for the sake of the feeling of having children and get admiration by others and have some sense of achievement or worth for that creation . just give me one thing that will make me won't to move one and tries to "improve" my life . sometime i wish i have stayed bluepilled. it's like the more you know the more you get more bitter , sad and everything start having less important until it will have no more worth for you . is it just the reality of life to be this imperfect , bitter , sad and meaningless .no matter what happen you can't be happy or fulfilled . everyone nowadays is holding each other by lies and fake interest in things . nothing matters but we still refuse and pretend that things matter .in this cold existence i only hold to religion to keep my self sane , may be the after life is better .
i can literally live with minimum comfort , food and people so trying so hard to improve my life is pointless, having more won't change my state , i am as i am now and after . tbh , friends family and even woman can't add me any more value . i don't need their validation or attention . they aren't special , they are just souls somehow get to be in a body that was created by tow couple for the sake of the feeling of having children and get admiration by others and have some sense of achievement or worth for that creation . just give me one thing that will make me won't to move one and tries to "improve" my life . sometime i wish i have stayed bluepilled. it's like the more you know the more you get more bitter , sad and everything start having less important until it will have no more worth for you . is it just the reality of life to be this imperfect , bitter , sad and meaningless .no matter what happen you can't be happy or fulfilled . everyone nowadays is holding each other by lies and fake interest in things . nothing matters but we still refuse and pretend that things matter .in this cold existence i only hold to religion to keep my self sane , may be the after life is better .
