Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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All because of that damn dream. I'm a fairly emotionless person, numb and feeling almost nothing at all times. And that was fine since nothing could ever happen between me an a woman. All that I was miserable about was not having sex and only occasionally thinking about cuddling and affection.
But now something has awakened inside of me. I feel the need to ... love and be loved. It's horrible because not only do I know that love doesn't truly exist, that women are manipulative and monstrous creatures, but because no woman could be interested in me, and with my mental problems and avoidance there's no way I could get a woman even if one happened to be interested in me.
The craving for sex is easy to fix, just fap one or two out and you're set for a few days. But wanting intimacy, wanting a person to be happy to be with you, to hug you and cuddle you and kiss you with sincerity, to enjoy each other's company - that's something that not only can't be fixed, but that I won't be able to have ever in my life.
But now something has awakened inside of me. I feel the need to ... love and be loved. It's horrible because not only do I know that love doesn't truly exist, that women are manipulative and monstrous creatures, but because no woman could be interested in me, and with my mental problems and avoidance there's no way I could get a woman even if one happened to be interested in me.
The craving for sex is easy to fix, just fap one or two out and you're set for a few days. But wanting intimacy, wanting a person to be happy to be with you, to hug you and cuddle you and kiss you with sincerity, to enjoy each other's company - that's something that not only can't be fixed, but that I won't be able to have ever in my life.