SEA is my only hope, failing that I kill myself.
- May 1, 2019
- 47d 5h 48m
There are just days where you really feel more terrible than usual. Watching your life be wasted right in front of you eyes is really depressing. I am very sad boyos it becomes very hard to deal with all of this. There is so much I want to do but literally no energy for anything just another day wasted. It is very sad and cruel to be alone all your life with not a single friend by your side. I haven't even spoken to anybody for the past few years. But enough of the self pity; I must find ways to deal with this shit. Regularly it's easy to cope but when days like that come it is very difficult.