Mulattocel
Admiral
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- Joined
- Apr 21, 2019
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I’m about to turn 22 and beginning to fully realize the situation I’m in is becoming permanent. As a cope I have turned to heavy drinking and I’m talking heavy drinking like 750 ml of vodka or more a day almost every single day. I think the alcohol has helped me reach that state I have heard others describe here.
That zombie like trance were you just can’t feel emotions at the intensity you used to. Just a year ago my emotions were much greater then now. I would see a happy couple out in public and would get filled with rage or sadness or a combination of the two now I can’t even feel anything anymore. I see a couple now and I just think to myself like “yeah nature fucked you over. You’ll never have something that beautiful in your life so just don’t look at them and move on”.
No more rage no more sadness just.....nothing. I actually don’t like this as much as you might think because I think feeling emotional about something so important can be good. It lets you know you haven’t reached a point we’re you are so pathetic and fucked were you have no choice but into a spectators like existence. And really once you get to this point of inceldom were you literally have unwillingly just accepted your fate and your brain has entered full blown cope mode then it truly is unequivocally over.
That zombie like trance were you just can’t feel emotions at the intensity you used to. Just a year ago my emotions were much greater then now. I would see a happy couple out in public and would get filled with rage or sadness or a combination of the two now I can’t even feel anything anymore. I see a couple now and I just think to myself like “yeah nature fucked you over. You’ll never have something that beautiful in your life so just don’t look at them and move on”.
No more rage no more sadness just.....nothing. I actually don’t like this as much as you might think because I think feeling emotional about something so important can be good. It lets you know you haven’t reached a point we’re you are so pathetic and fucked were you have no choice but into a spectators like existence. And really once you get to this point of inceldom were you literally have unwillingly just accepted your fate and your brain has entered full blown cope mode then it truly is unequivocally over.