there isn't really anyone I like talking to. I have always been isolated and alone, starting from the primary school. I'm not violent, I don't hurt or make fun of people. that's why I have never had friends or a girlfriend for that reason. at highschool I came across one or two dudes who are sensitive and gentle people, one of the dudes was in basketball team even he was pretty good but had to quit because he told me he hated the people in the team. we became friends but I don't see them that often now that we are about to enter adulthood trying to get jobs and chasing careers.
out there it's infinite amount of personal shitness, law of jungle. 99.99% of people are devoid of humanity. the more powerful and asshole you're the more you attract people because animals think being close to you would raise their chances of survival. there's very very little percentage of people out there who are careful about not hurting other people, geniune niceness, worrying about the shit you say so you don't hurt other people's feelings. I am more careful about what I say so I don't hurt another person's feeling more than women are careful. and they don't care about niceness or anything like that. they are just lying to appear as good humanbeings, because the truth is ugly and they're animals acting based on their animalistic instincts.
