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Its been 3-4 years since I last tried that, back then I had a completely different mindset. I can't believe how much different I felt. I used to enjoy groping females as I walked past or at least bumping into them and trying to slide my way around to get from o e place to another. Now all I could see where their disgusted looks.
My friend was typical saying go dance with them bro see those groups of them standing around, that means they want you to approach..I just scoffed and stood my ground. I was there to see the DJ and get free drinks, it was his last night here In town and actually a very nice guy.
By now the club was getting very crowded and we went out to the patio and sat down..I was starting to feel extremely uncomfortable and out of place. I used to deal with this by getting totally obliterated and trying this or that thing to build up my "confidence".
But now that kind of thing has no purpose and I just sat there watching a TV screen as people got closer and closer to me. Eventually some foid sat down beside me an began chatting with her friend on the other side I just completley ignored her and another one sat down beside her leaving me with no room. It was all I could stand at that point I told my friends gf to save my seat and actually asked the girl sitting next to me to do the same. when I tapped her shoulder she gave me the most vile look i just pointed at my seat and said I was coming back. She just shrugged her shoulders rolled her eyes and gave me an awful look. i figured I was being nice and not invading her space like any other guy would she would want me to come back.. But all she could see was some nasty incel was touching her..That's all I could take and almost broke down right there.
After heading to the bathroom one more time I just got I'm my car and left without telling anyone.
Tonight was no different than any other night in the past except now I could see exactly how much I didnt belong there instead of trying to act confident and ignoring the bad signs and searching for that that one signal one time that finally broke through and figure all this social stuff out.
I cried to myself until I made it home..incels dont belong anywhere except thier rooms. I feel really bad for the guys that have roommates or that live in dorms. That is absolute madness not being able to get away from a world that hates your ugly existence.
I think there are many young guys on here that dont belong. Being an incel is nothing to be proud of this life is fucking awful and I dont wish it upon anyone.
Day after day after day of the same shit with nothing to look forward to. I am a struggling addict and it's a constant slide backwards with nothing to hold on to to keep from using. The minute my mom leaves this world I am gonna do a final hit of heroin and slip under the waves..its such a peaceful way to go
My friend was typical saying go dance with them bro see those groups of them standing around, that means they want you to approach..I just scoffed and stood my ground. I was there to see the DJ and get free drinks, it was his last night here In town and actually a very nice guy.
By now the club was getting very crowded and we went out to the patio and sat down..I was starting to feel extremely uncomfortable and out of place. I used to deal with this by getting totally obliterated and trying this or that thing to build up my "confidence".
But now that kind of thing has no purpose and I just sat there watching a TV screen as people got closer and closer to me. Eventually some foid sat down beside me an began chatting with her friend on the other side I just completley ignored her and another one sat down beside her leaving me with no room. It was all I could stand at that point I told my friends gf to save my seat and actually asked the girl sitting next to me to do the same. when I tapped her shoulder she gave me the most vile look i just pointed at my seat and said I was coming back. She just shrugged her shoulders rolled her eyes and gave me an awful look. i figured I was being nice and not invading her space like any other guy would she would want me to come back.. But all she could see was some nasty incel was touching her..That's all I could take and almost broke down right there.
After heading to the bathroom one more time I just got I'm my car and left without telling anyone.
Tonight was no different than any other night in the past except now I could see exactly how much I didnt belong there instead of trying to act confident and ignoring the bad signs and searching for that that one signal one time that finally broke through and figure all this social stuff out.
I cried to myself until I made it home..incels dont belong anywhere except thier rooms. I feel really bad for the guys that have roommates or that live in dorms. That is absolute madness not being able to get away from a world that hates your ugly existence.
I think there are many young guys on here that dont belong. Being an incel is nothing to be proud of this life is fucking awful and I dont wish it upon anyone.
Day after day after day of the same shit with nothing to look forward to. I am a struggling addict and it's a constant slide backwards with nothing to hold on to to keep from using. The minute my mom leaves this world I am gonna do a final hit of heroin and slip under the waves..its such a peaceful way to go
