When I stacy treated me like shit for no reason. Being a blackcel in a black high school is rough as it is. The black stacy making fun of my looks and height (because black boys/men have to be a certain height/frame/attitude etc if we didn't fall in that category were seen as subhuman) in front of the other kids, even the other kids avoided me because of how she treated me, just ruined my image. I came off as a quiet beta kid with high inhib. Asking me patronizing questions such as "I can tell you get no pussy", "Why you so short", "Nigga why are so quiet, are you mute", "do you have a tongue?", "do you ride the shortbus?", "why you look so scared?" What made it worse was I had a crush on her, she was light-skinned. She look exactly like Zoe Kravitz. I think she was mixed. She also won Homecoming queen two years in a row. Nice body. Foul-mouth, rude and ghetto though.
The newer Tyrone kid came in the class one day and she was all over him. She got him to sit next to her and her attitude and demeanor changed all because of how he look. He even manhandled her in a playful way by grabbing her arms pinning her to the ground when he tried to cuck him with the same patronizing questions she asked me. On the first day of school the following year, the tyrone came up to me at the school bus on the way home and said that he hook up with the foid at her house over the summer and banged her at his house while his parents went on vacation. I was try to act surprised but I was furious, envious and hurt inside all at the same time. He also said she likes to swallow. While I was fapping to her image in my head, he was fapping his balls against her pussy, thrusting his cock inside her.
At lunch, he spotted me walking to my seat with my lunch tray. He was sitting next to her at a table full of jockfags. He called me over to sit at an empty seat across from him, I walk over and she sees me and I can read her lips as she turned to him: *rolls eyes* *sucks teeth* I don't want this Wayne Brady ass nigga over here". (Being called Wayne Brady as a black kid was an insult as Wayne is viewed as the "whitest" black guy in entertainment, in other words in her eyes I was a nerdy beta white guy but with negro features). He turned to me with a look of guilt and said something but I stopped and said "its ok man" (like a nice guy beta) and quickly walked on the other end of the table. Similar shit like this happened to me throughout high school.
Before high school I was truly bluepilled and had a career minded had goals. When I finished highschool, I felt so defeated and lack ambition or inspiration to do any with my life. I was truly disgusted with the behavior of foids, whenever they asked me something I just give them a quick response in a deadpan voice. No eye contact. I get defensive when I'm around them because of getting used, mocked and taking advantage of during my highschool years.
