Deleted member 16608
lower than whale shit
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Unemployed, country in lockdown, society collapsing. I started smoking again and drinking tons of soda. I don't eat real food, a diet of sugar and nicotine. I used to have goals, creative projects I wanted to do, but now I can barely look at a computer screen without wanting to puke or get overwhelmed by the shame and anxiety of not producing (the only thing I think I could add worth to the world with). I don't get pleasure from copes. Vidya, porn, drinking. Everything seems vacuous. My anhedonia is off the charts.
Everyone my age seems to be getting married or being degenerate on tinder, doing drugs and going out. Both seem like a miserable existence but it they cannot compare to the loneliness I feel.
Everyone my age seems to be getting married or being degenerate on tinder, doing drugs and going out. Both seem like a miserable existence but it they cannot compare to the loneliness I feel.