I always pictured college would be the best time of my life but it was the worst. I met a nice girl there. She was being polite to me, didn't tell me to fuck off when I'd talk to her and such. She's a saint, most girls will make sure I know they couldn't be less interested. I soon enough realized that she wasn't interested (must've been my personality 
) and so I saved some face and didn't embarrass myself any further than I already had talking to her as a sub-chadlite male. I would go to school, go home and LDAR. So after a while, I couldn't bring myself to classes anymore. The essays I had written, I just threw away. Why bother participating in a world that has me set up to fail? I hated it there. Being unattractive is a death sentence and I just wish I could be happy. I managed to jump through enough hoops to land myself a comfy NEETbux position, I want a job but I can't do that because I'd have to work twice as hard as everyone else and be at the bottom of the pecking order. I don't see myself ascending any time in the near future without surgery. My family along with my extended family shower me with bluepills, I smile but I'm REEing on the inside. Lately I've been going to the gym but I'm afraid of using new workout equipment so I'm stuck doing the same routines and neglecting my core, back, and legs. I'm completely alone and because of my situation, don't talk to any of my old friends. I've picked up smoking cigarettes... I need to ascend or one day I'm going to fucking snap.
) and so I saved some face and didn't embarrass myself any further than I already had talking to her as a sub-chadlite male. I would go to school, go home and LDAR. So after a while, I couldn't bring myself to classes anymore. The essays I had written, I just threw away. Why bother participating in a world that has me set up to fail? I hated it there. Being unattractive is a death sentence and I just wish I could be happy. I managed to jump through enough hoops to land myself a comfy NEETbux position, I want a job but I can't do that because I'd have to work twice as hard as everyone else and be at the bottom of the pecking order. I don't see myself ascending any time in the near future without surgery. My family along with my extended family shower me with bluepills, I smile but I'm REEing on the inside. Lately I've been going to the gym but I'm afraid of using new workout equipment so I'm stuck doing the same routines and neglecting my core, back, and legs. I'm completely alone and because of my situation, don't talk to any of my old friends. I've picked up smoking cigarettes... I need to ascend or one day I'm going to fucking snap. 
