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I remember I used to look at average looking girls and imagine myself holding hands with her telling her how special she is to me and her doing the same to me. She would be so thankful that I thought she was special because most men didn't with her being average looking but to me she was amazing with or without makeup because she would be my girl and I would be her man. Sex with her never even crossed my mind.
I imagined that she would look at me in the same way and not care about me looksmaxxing and gymmaxxing like crazy because she loves me for who I am and that is all she needs. Again sex with her never crossed my mind.
I watched my sister and her boyfriend get married and bring their newborn son to family dinners and witness how proud my mum and dad and all of us are of the boy and my sister as he grows up. I imagined myself doing the same one day and them being just as proud of me. My mum and dad watching me at the altar. My best friend reading out a silly speech about me. Me and my girl holding my son or daughter. Again sex never crossed my mind.
I have tried over and over again to speak to girls in every setting imaginable over the years in the nicest possible ways - school, college, nightclubs, days out, holidays...the same reactions every time...either nicely let down, told I am inferior or outright aggressiveness. I got so desperate that I didn't even think about sex. I would've been happy to just be in a relationship with a girl with no sex or touching whatsoever...but it never happened.
Now I'm 37 years old, have never touched a girl and have got nothing but bad memories of my failed efforts. Am I entitled?
I imagined that she would look at me in the same way and not care about me looksmaxxing and gymmaxxing like crazy because she loves me for who I am and that is all she needs. Again sex with her never crossed my mind.
I watched my sister and her boyfriend get married and bring their newborn son to family dinners and witness how proud my mum and dad and all of us are of the boy and my sister as he grows up. I imagined myself doing the same one day and them being just as proud of me. My mum and dad watching me at the altar. My best friend reading out a silly speech about me. Me and my girl holding my son or daughter. Again sex never crossed my mind.
I have tried over and over again to speak to girls in every setting imaginable over the years in the nicest possible ways - school, college, nightclubs, days out, holidays...the same reactions every time...either nicely let down, told I am inferior or outright aggressiveness. I got so desperate that I didn't even think about sex. I would've been happy to just be in a relationship with a girl with no sex or touching whatsoever...but it never happened.
Now I'm 37 years old, have never touched a girl and have got nothing but bad memories of my failed efforts. Am I entitled?